06/05/2012

YAY! We're finally done with all of finals and now everything that I have to worry about is the musical. I really don't want to go to school tomorrow, because people who are involved in the musical will have to go to rehearsal for the whole day in the Science Park auditorium. What sucks is how people in school will all be relaxed for three whole days while we have to be focused and tired and all in all these three days. It's quite unfair, but I guess that's what we get for choosing these courses in the beginning. I swear, once I'm done with all the art credits, I will never choose this course ever again. It takes up so much time, and I don't think it's worth it since we ruined so many of our clothes by making them more "beautiful". I really think that it's not quite worth it even if we get A+ in this course. It won't cover the sacrificing of our clothes and time and I guess the after parties would be pretty amazing and of course, I hope that there will be one. And of course, after the performance, summer will officially begin for me! I'm going to Palau and the States this year, and I'm really looking forward to going there and having fun!

06/04/2012

Finally, I have only one more final. Yesterday, I wasn't sure about whether we had an expository writing one, but obviously, today, we found out that we did. It wasn't hard but it was VERY annoying. The hardest part was probably the poem part. We had to use 3 poetic elements in one poem. It doesn't sound hard, but it really is, when you have a limited amount of time. This could be the worst poem ever written in human history and I would never want to talk about it again. And the other part that was quite hard was the essay part. I had trouble thinking of three supporting details to use as topic sentences. And after I finished the whole essay and was working on the conclusion, I found out that one of my body paragraphs didn't really support my thesis. I panicked a bit but then added a sentence in the end of the paragraph and the whole paragraph made perfect sense! I felt proud of myself for a bit and still, I hope that the teacher wouldn't think that it was too obvious. I'm really glad that it's almost the end of the year and that after the test tomorrow, I can basically screw around in school! 

06/03/2012

Finally, I have almost no more finals left. One, or possibly two. Of course, I hope that there is only one, which would be the Geometry one. We possibly will have the Expository Writing one tomorrow, and of course, I hope that we won't be tested. My grade in this subject is pretty okay now, and I don't want to risk having my grade pulled down by this test. And also, I don't want to hand write a five-paragraph essay in a limited amount of time. And of course, the test wouldn't only include that one essay. And oh my god. I really don't want to study for for anything else anymore. Also, of course, I don't want to take the Geometry test. I really don't like geometry. Really. And to be honest, I prefer Algebra more than Geometry. But anyways, I still have to deal with the final test of Geometry. I'm really glad, yet really sad about it. I'm glad because I'm finally over Geometry because of how much I dislike it and how hard it is for me to study it. Algebra, which I'll be taking next year, would be a lot easier, hopefully. And, I'm sad because this year, I didn't need to really study much nor concentrate a lot in these Geometry classes. I hope that everything will be better next year too!

05/31/2012

I really am giving up on the Biology finals tomorrow. We have 10 chapters to study for, and according to my friend, there are more than 200 pages to study. It is just impossible to have all those pages read through and have the important parts memorized in one night. It's not about procrastination. It's about how there are also other classes, not only Biology, and I think that the teacher should be aware of that. We have a life. Other than studying, we still have other things to worry about and other things to be doing, especially how we have all the other subject's final exams to be prepared for. And seriously, 10 chapters? I really think that this amount of work load isn't reasonable. It is nearly impossible to study for this much of information and the teachers just keep telling us to sleep early, yet they still give out this much of work and such a big amount of things to study for. They blame us for procrastinating, but have they ever thought about how much other things we need to do? The school wants us to be a well-rounded individual, yet all we have time to do, is to study, study, and study. It's already 11 PM and really doubt that I can sleep tonight. 

05/30/2012

I finally got my camera! I've been wanting to buy a new camera for a long time. And the kind I wanted wasn't those normal digital ones. I wanted the more professional ones. I still don't really know how to use it, but I'm going to get better at it by practicing more and being brave and not afraid to change modes to see the effects. Also, since there are so many people in our school who are really into and really know information about photography, I might as well just ask them how they take some of their pictures. I'm really excited about it, and today when I got it, I tried taking pictures with it. But it's so much harder than I thought and very different from the digital cameras. I had issues with the focusing already and after around 10 shots, I think I've found the way to focus the camera on the object that I want to take a picture of. If it weren't finals week this week, I might just go outside and take more pictures and try out more things about it. Speaking of finals week, I'm pretty sure I'm pretty much dead for the Biology part. We're going to be tested on 10 chapters and I haven't started preparing for it yet and the test is on Friday. 

05/29/2012

It really doesn't feel like finals week. Yes, people have been using the "busy icon" on Skype, but still. The way people are acting at school is just hard to relate to the thought of "it's finals week". There isn't much change. People still stay after school to fool around in the hallways or hang out in the cafeteria or sofa area. It does feel a bit different because the seniors don't need to come to school anymore, so there has been fewer people in school. It doesn't do much change to me since I only have one class that has only 3 seniors included if you don't count "Stage Art" as one. And normally, I don't listen to music when I'm studying for exams, but today, I've been enjoying way too much music than I'm supposed to. It's really weird and funny how I'm actually really awake now and it's already 11 PM. I guess it's because I slept at 9 PM last night. It's been years since I've slept at 9 PM in a regular school day. When I woke up this morning, I felt so accomplished and even though I was still a bit tired from staying up till 2 or 3 for the weekends, I had an energetic day and I think that after my finals, I'll be sleeping at 9 everyday. 

05/27/2012

Even though it's almost finals, I don't feel the feeling of being in that stage of time. Normally, before these big mid-terms or finals, people start to change their Skype statuses into the "busy sign", but today, only a few people did. Also, I really don't see people online till really late these days. I've been staying up till 2 or 3 these two days and people have been going to sleep pretty early. And today, since I really couldn't feel the feeling of being in the state of "near finals", I woke up at around 12 o'clock and spent almost all of my afternoon and night outside. And now I really don't want to talk about finals since I'm 100% not prepared for them. A happy thing that happened to me is that I've done 120 sit ups yesterday and hoola hooped for around 20 minutes while memorizing my lines for Romeo and Juliet. I want to lose some more weight as soon as possible since there are many events coming up for me. I have a concert to go to, which I'm really looking forward to, since the singer is just absolutely hot and cute and all of those positive adjectives that you can use to describe a man, and also about going to America this summer. I want to look good and enjoy myself more when I'm there! 

05/24/2012

I just realized that I forgot to do this journal yesterday. I was flooded with piles of homework and things to study for. In this week, we have had three tests in total, although I haven't taken one because I was absent. On Monday, there was a grammar test; on Tuesday, there was supposed to have a Geometry test but I wasn't there that day; on Wednesday, I was free from tests, though on Thursday, which is today, we had a really hard test about The Odyssey. It's probably one of the hardest reading material that I've read since a long time. Well actually, the play of Romeo and Juliet got me quite frustrated too. It's just that the language in poetry and the medieval or renaissance times are too different from the language that we're using nowadays. It takes around 5 or more times of time to understand it compared to the time you spend to read just a normal novel nowadays. Sometimes, you might not even understand it unless you go and read the translation or have someone translate it for you. I was really happy that I got every question right today for this English test, and now, the real thing that I'm worried about is the Biology final. It will include 9 chapters and we aren't allowed to bring in any notes or any assisting materials, and in class, no one really was listening to the teacher and the homework don't require us to fully understand what the chapter is talking about. I'm really worried about it and yet I still hope to do good on it!

05/22/2012

I really want to go to a new place and start a new life. I've screwed up so many things in the past and it's not that I don't want to fix it, but it's just that even if you try to fix it, it either would make things worse than it needs to be, or it'll just make things more complicated and annoying. If I could, then I would just lie on a very comfortable bed, have food sent to me whenever I'm hungry, and just not do anything, unless I feel like it, and wait until I die. I don't care if my brain will start to "decay" or lose function. I just want to really relax and not worry about anything that I've screwed up, or anything that I can possibly screw up in the future. I'm really sick and tired of all the stress and annoying things that have happened. Sometimes, I really envy those people who seem like they have no stress and live happily. It's probably because they can deal with stress more than I can. I really wish I can get rid of all the red spots I've made in the past and restart my life. If I could, then I would really be a totally different person and will never do those stupid mistakes that I've done before. 

05/21/2012

I'm thinking about whether I should go to school or not. It's obvious that I'm sick now because of the rain in the Spring Fair yesterday, and I have two tests tomorrow. I don't want to do bad on them because I'm not feeling well and wasn't able to prepare for them as thoroughly as I could have. I'm literally dying in my mucus. I can't breathe through my nose and I just won't stop sneezing and sniffing. It's really uncomfortable and I really can't focus on any work, not even watching my favorite show, 90210, or even chatting with my friends. Now, I'm getting a headache, and it's only 10:23 but I'm already falling asleep. I'm listening to party music now, hoping that I can wake up. It's annoying because I haven't started to study for the two tests that I have tomorrow. The only two reasons that I might want to go to school tomorrow is because after our Spanish test, our teacher said that she can teach us to cook some other Spanish food. It's always really attractive to me to be learning how to cook those food. The other reason is that if I go to school tomorrow, I'll go to eat at a restaurant which I really like with my friends. 

05/20/2012

Today could be counted as one of the most exhausting days that I've had in a few months. It was Spring fair in the morning, and when I got there, it was already raining but I didn't know that it would be raining that strong later on. My shoes were entirely soaked in mud and water and my I could feel the coldness of the rain and mud on my feet. This time, because of the rain, everything felt really chaotic. First, we took other grade's table and ice chest, and then we found out that no one really knows how to wrap a burrito, and that in the end, we thought that we ran out of tortillas, but actually, we still had two more packs, but we just didn't see them. We even walked all the way to a place kind of like a department store to buy the skin of it, but because they didn't have Mexican kinds, we had to buy the Taiwanese kinds that we had to cook before we could sell them. But those were really hard to cook because they stick on the pan even after we put oil. In the end, we didn't earn as much money as we expected, and not as much as we did last year. Last year, we earned around 20 thousand, and this year, we only nearly reached 10 thousand. 

05/17/2012

Tomorrow we're having a Spanish test. In every chapter, there are two sections and I thought that our test would only be on the second section, but at night, when I confirmed with Annie and the teacher, they told me that it'll be on the whole chapter, I nearly screamed. I stayed at school until some time around 7PM and got home really late. I fell asleep till around 9 o'clock. When I woke up and saw the clock, I was surprised. One hour passed so quickly and it felt like it was only 15 minutes. I quickly got off the bed and started to study. I started on the vocabulary first since I'm normally better on memorizing those. After totaling the amounts of vocabulary that I have to memorize, I kind of wanted to give up. In total, there were 71 to memorize. But then I thought on the positive side. I've memorized most of them before, and now, all I have to do is to review them all and I was pretty sure that I'll get them memorized quite quickly. Fortunately, I'm done memorizing them now already, but I haven't started on reviewing the grammar. In this whole chapter, there are six different tenses to study for, and now, I should get going to go study those. 

05/16/2012

One day, my body will crash if I continue to be sleeping this late and not having healthy meals regularly. It's just that it's just hard to be sleeping early since I have so much stuff to do and with all the pressure, sometimes it's just hard to fall asleep directly after I get on bed. I really want to be going to sleep earlier but I guess it's just hard to go to sleep early when a lot of people are there, online, for you to chat with, and every time I start watching another episode of 90210, I just can't stop watching after the hook at the end of each episode. Each day, I watch at least 3 episodes and I'm storming through them. It's kind of sad because it feels like I have no life but to watch all the TV episodes. I want to hang out with friends and freedom just like the people in Beverly Hills have. I kind of envy the life of them in these shows other than all the dramatic things that happen to each of them and how misunderstandings can turn out to the destruction of someone's life. But it's just that there are some things that are too complicated in their lives, with all the sexual life they're getting at the age of 15 or 16, the pregnant people, and the drugs. 

05/15/2012

Today I have like a lot of homework and the History one is especially hard and annoying since it requires you to fully understand the documentary that our teacher showed us in class, which is really hard to, because first of all, it was long. Second of all, it's just not entertaining to me. And third of all, I was really tired in class, and I know this isn't an excuse, but I couldn't concentrate and even though I was staring at the film, none of the information really went into my brain and of course none got digested and observed. It took me a long time and asked for a lot of help from my friends to explain things that got me confused. Also, I had to do a lot of research to make sure that things I'll get the 7 questions right and with enough details to get a good grade on it. Although 7 questions sound little, it's actually quite a lot by looking at how deep the questions are and how many "sub-questions" there are within each question. I spent a lot of time on it and I hope that I'll get a good grade on it. Now that I've been thinking about it again, I just realized that I haven't sent him my work yet. 

05/14/2012

I'm really getting addicted to the new version of 90210. I've just gotten over with "How I Met Your Mother" probably because I've watched all the episodes that have been played already. I've found out that actually American TV shows are a lot better than a lot of the Taiwanese ones. I've only watched a few different American TV shows and I'm liking them more than the Taiwanese ones that I've watched. A lot of the Taiwanese ones are too cheesy and a little bit too fake. The American ones are sometimes cheesy on those chick flick ones but they're still mostly really entertaining and even though I've just started watching "90210" 3 days ago, yet I've already been able to get up to episode 22 and i'm thinking that i'll probably finish all episodes of season 1, which would be around 24 episodes I think. It's really a entertaining show, but really different from "How I Met Your Mother". Also, when I finish this show, I think I'll be watching Pretty Littler Liars, and then Gossip Girls or probably The BIg Bang Theory. Now that I've listed these, I just realized that there are so many different good TV shows in America that I've never seen before. 

05/10/2012

Now that I've finished all the episodes of "How I Met Your Mother" which I enjoyed so much throughout all of the 7 seasons, just probably a little less in the sixth season. I had a tough time trying to decide which to watch between "90210", "Glee", "Gossip Girls" and "Pretty Little LIars". It was hard because I've heard from a lot of people that Pretty Little Liars was a great show about the life of high school students which have murders going on. I'm really into shows that have murders and suspenses like those. The second choice is Gossip Girls, because there has been a lot of compliments about that too, though I've heard some negative things about it too, but from what I've heard that it's about, I really like the story plot. Also, even though I heard that "Glee" doesn't have a lot of plot, but I know for a fact that there are a lot of really good singers and good songs which I love, because when I'm doing homework, I have to listen to music, or it'll feel weird. And also, 90210, is a really good TV show from what I've seen today. I've watched 5 episodes today and I really enjoyed it. It's about the life in Beverly Hills for teenagers, and I really like it so far. 

05/09/2012

Today I went swimming, and it was actually a lot easier and not as hard as before because first of all, we didn't swim that long distances like we did before, and we chatted a lot in between the gaps, which made it feel like we didn't swim that much and weren't as tired. It was really fun actually this time in which actually it was just the gossips made it fun. And since I went swimming after the 5-week break more regularly, I'm catching up more already. It feels really good to regain what I've lost, and even though it's not completely back yet, I've improved a lot already. One thing that I'm kind of annoyed about now is how my legs are still sore from the only 15 minutes shooting balls upstairs practice. I know that I don't often exercise on land because of my hurt knee from before that will feel painful when I over use them. So my on land muscles are really bad and I always have to wear a protection band around it which makes it really hot and feel lazy to exercise. Now, my parents bought an immovable bicycle and put it in front of the TV. I guess I'll be riding that bike more often now to make myself both lose weight and strengthen my muscles. 

05/08/2012

Oh My God. Why is there this much homework today? I'm really glad that I didn't have to go to my oboe class today because if I really went, I really doubt that I can have any sleep today. It's annoying how because I've told the teacher that I couldn't go to class several times lately because of all the homework load and the tests, and that now every time I do get a lot of homework and have to tell the teacher that I can't go, I feel really ashamed and I think that the teacher would really dislike me if I keep doing this, but the problem is that I'm not a really efficient worker and if I still go to that class, I'd be really tired and also that I'll be unable to complete my homework because i'd be too tired. Now that I've finished all the other homework other than this blog post and reading 10 pages of "The Odyssey", I still feel a bit nervous because the last time when I was reading it, I didn't really get all of it, and with 10 pages of that, I don't know if I can digest all of that at once and be ready for the possible "Reading Check" tomorrow. 

05/07/2012

And again, for like the 10 thousandth time, I don't know what to write about for today's blog/ journal. One different thing that happened is how we didn't have swim practice because our coach hurt his leg and wasn't able to drive us there. So, after fooling around for a while in our school, and then finding out that it's basically impossible for us to be studying at that time since we didn't really want to, and that there were people around us talking about gossip or chatting which make it even harder to concentrate. So then, we went upstairs to play basketball ball, which is just a total miracle for me, because I absolutely suck at it, and then of course, don't like to play it. But actually, it feels good to be sweating and running under the sun. It's been a long time since the last time that I did that. It just sucks how my knee always hurts afterwards which means that i can't always play basketball. So that's the reason why I'm a good swimmer. But then there's another bad thing about it, which is how I can't really follow and do all the dry land training with my teammates because I don't want to over work my knees and get them hurt again, and also I can't really dive because of it too. I have fear in my heart of getting hurt while jumping. 

05/06/2012

There are always those days when you feel really annoyed and depressed without knowing why. I guess it's just because there are too many things to be annoyed about in life. I know that I'm in a very good environment already and that I should be cherishing all these boons, but it's just hard to be happy when I'm already really annoyed and in a really bad mood. I think that one reason is because that the weather is really stuffy and hot, especially in my room. Another reason I think is because that tomorrow is Monday again and we have to go to school again. Each day that passes in this school makes me dislike it even more. I don't really know what happened to make it become like this. The only thing that can really cheer me up now is watching "How I Met Your Mother", but there are in total 7 Seasons while I'm already more than half way through. I'm planning on watching some other TV shows that can make me be happy again like this one is. Everyone that lives have to meet Barney Stinson. He's the most awesome person, yet the most perverted person possibly ever. 

05/03/2012

The more days I stay in this school, the more I don't like it, and the more I want to transfer to some other school. I was going to transfer to Morrison Academy in Taichung. I've heard that it's a really good school and when I went to look at their website, I found out that their swim team is really good! And the records that they've kept is really good. I really wanted to go, but when my parents called the school, they said that there won't be any empty spots for the rising sophomores. Although I was kind of depressed and disappointed when I learned about this fact, I remembered the night before the day that my mom planned to bring me to visit the school. That night, I was panicking about questions like "What if they don't like me?" "What if I can't fit in when I transfer?" "They all look so pretty in these pictures but I'm not... Will they don't want to be friends with me?" I was really scared for a while, so I figured that, probably not transferring would be a good decision too. I hate the feeling of being worried about questions like that, and even though transferring might make me happier, I still don't want to go through the process of fitting in. 

05/01/2012

Just right now I've realized that it's already May. It feels like a few weeks ago was just the leadership camp in Hualien. I don't want to be a junior yet. Looking at the juniors every year working so hard, yet getting yelled at almost everyday, it's just a life that I don't ever want to have. Although I'm a person that doesn't need a LOT of sleep, I still have to have a certain amount of sleep every week. According to some of the upperclassmen, if you want to get into a good school, there will always be many days that you can barely sleep. Also, I've heard that it's hard to even find time to squeeze the event "eating" in between the day. I hate those kind of times when you are totally stressed out and even though doing the best you can to get things done and have them done perfectly, you still get yelled at by people, telling you that you're not spending enough effort on the works. Can time please pass a little slower? I still want to enjoy my childhood. The time is taking my innocence away and forcing us to find out how disgusting reality is. Even the closest people beside you can suddenly turn back and stab you in the back some day. 

04/30/2012

Today, there's nothing really special that happened actually, which is just another usual thing. One happy thing that happened would be how I finished two tests today and I believe that I've did a good job on both. On the English test, I got really lucky and guessed many questions correctly, though there were still questions that I got wrong that I thought it's supposed to be right. I'm pretty satisfied with the history test too, since I think at most I'll only get 3 wrong, unless the teacher isn't satisfied with my other answers that I think are perfectly fine. Another thing that I'm happy about is how Annie and I bought two pairs of really super duper cute earrings that is very unique and hard to find. The annoying thing is that I have to pay the money by ATM or by the post office, which is really hard for us because we don't have any bank accounts. Also, we can't get the things we ordered in 7-11. Instead, we have to go to Family Mart, and it took us almost half an hour to find a Family Mart that we can go to together. It was actually just because we didnt' know how to find it, but later on, we got smart and found it. We hope that it'll be just as cute as the picture showed that it was. 

04/29/2012

Today was a totally awesome day, though I've spent so much time fooling around. Ms. Ruperez came to my house to cook Spanish food with me and Iris. Funnily, yet not surprisingly, Iris overslept and woke up at 2 o'clock. Our "appointment" was at 10:30, yet she slept to 2 o'clock. It's just really funny because it's entertaining to tease at her especially about things like this. The most important thing is that we had an amazing day because the food we cooked was amazing. But then, we cooked too much of it, and even around 7 grown ups couldn't finish it all. We cooked chicken legs, tapas, shrimp, potato omelet, mushroom and bacon, and we were planning on making salad, but then we were too full, so then decided not to, and just eat fruits. The food was absolutely amazing and we wouldn't care for more even though we were already completely stuffed. Afterwards, Annie had a lot of fun playing with my dogs and when Iris finished eating and Annie went home, Iris and I went to rent a movie and watched it together. I really enjoy spending time with her since she's a really humorous person and understands me a lot of the times. 

04/26/2012

Tomorrow, I'm going to watch the new movie "The Avengers" with my friends. In total, I think there are 10 people who are going, including me, Ivy, Annie, Callie, Kara, Quincy, Kyle, Jack and Tim. I'm pretty sure that I'll have fun since I've been waiting for this movie for months already since I saw the trailer of it a long time ago! And it's been a while since I've been watching movies with these friends! A while ago, I was watching movies with my family and with some other friends, but it's really been a while since I've been with them. I'm really looking forward to it, and also, we're pre-celebrating Ivy's 16th birthday! Honestly, I want to go to KTV and sing, but then since the birthday girl wants to go watch that movie, we shall follow her wish, and I will ask other people to go singing some other day. I really miss singing in the KTV too. The last time I went was a few months ago and I didn't really get to sing since I arrived late and left early. Also, the people that went that day, I didn't know them as well, so I couldn't sing the way I normally would. 

04/25/2012

Seriously, after 5 weeks of no swimming, you'd nearly die after you go back, even if you guys don't swim a lot that day and spend a lot of time taking pictures for the yearbook. Today, I went and now my arms are so sore and I've gotten a lot slower and it takes me so much more energy to swim the normal amount of swimming. This is really bad since we're going to have a competition against TAS, Taipei American School next month. Well, we're actually not sure about that yet because yesterday, when we asked our coach, Ms. Ruperez, about it, she said that the coach at TAS hasn't told her the exact date yet, so if he still didn't do so by yesterday, I think the event will most likely be canceled. Now, I kind of want it to be canceled because if we still have to go, I'm more than 100% sure that I'm not ready for it. Other than that I'm actually quite worried about the History test about World War Two. I'm actually really unprepared about that because of the incident that just happened, but fortunately, the teacher let me take it on Monday during my study hall period. 

04/24/2012

Tomorrow, there will be a History test, but then my mom just told me that my grandfather, who lives in Taipei, slipped in the bathroom and hurt himself quite badly and that he's now in the hospital. I'm actually typing this blog post in the car, using Hotspot to enable Internet connection to my computer. We're on the way to the hospital in Taipei to see if he's doing fine. We all hope that he's fine since it's really dangerous if old people hurt themselves like that. The thing that's making us worry more is that this isn't his first time, so it'll probably cause more harm, in addition to the old injuries. I'm actually quite worried about my History test, since I won't be having time to study tonight, and definitely not tomorrow. But then I won't have a lot of time to study for the test, which means that I won't do good, which also means that I'll have lower GPA. Last quarter, I had pretty good grades and I'm quite happy about it. I've calculated the GPA and it's 3.98 this year. I'm pretty impressed by my own work, but I still want to have high GPA for every quarter, though it's actually a difficult task. 

04/22/2012

Now, THIS is the way of enjoying life. Waking up at 11 AM in the morning, driving for one whole hour to MiaoLi, which is somewhere I actually don't know where it is, but I had fun in. We were looking at beautiful flower trees on this mountain. The whole place was around 216,000 square feet. It was humungous! And it was really beautiful inside too. We had lunch there and we chatted for a long time which we don't normally have the time to do so. And afterwards, I cam home first since I had quite a bit of homework to deal with and some tests to study for, and my parents and brother went to buy a bicycle that won't move forward and we'll put it in our living room. I don't know how to call that thing, but I know that it'll make me exercise more which will lead to me being skinnier. At night, we went to eat at a restaurant that we all like a lot but haven't been to for quite a while, and then went to watch the movie "Battleship". It's really good! And the most important thing was that the main character was smoking hot! The movie was a lot better than I thought it'd be, since only a few people suggested it to me, but then after watching it, I stayed hyper for another half hour after I got home! 

04/19/2012

In History class today, we were watching videos of World War II when the Americans dropped an atomic bomb in Japan, Germans gassing the Jews in gas chambers or putting them in working camps, and the Japanese doing biological weapons' experiments on Chinese people. The videos nearly made some girls cry since they were so violent and inhumane. In the first clip, the atomic bomb was bad because the government knew that what they were doing, bombing the city with an atomic bomb would lead to a very sad and devastating consequences, they still were doing it. For the second video, that was the most depressing since the Germans were just killing the people for no reason, just because they wanted to and wanted to benefit themselves by having free slaves that would do anything just to extend the living days of them. It was really sad since when the Germans got caught, they tried to annihilate all the evidence. The last video was almost as sad as the second one because the Chinese died in the scariest and inhumane ways. It's scary how ruthless our ancestors were back then. 

04/18/2012

I just finished a big bowl of soup and I'm so full and it's 10 o'clock at night. I know this is really random but I really don't know what to say since it's just another normal boring dull day. A good thing lately is how I've been getting a lot more sleep than I used to. I guess it's a good thing that the most important person in my life has left. When that person was still here, I barely could sleep for more than 6 hours everyday, but now, I can sleep for probably 8 hours everyday already. My physical condition, like my skin, has greatly improved. I used to have some pimples, but now, I only have one. Also, I think that sleeping more has a lot of other advantages like how i can concentrate more in class now other than focusing on keeping my eyes opened all the time. Also, when I'm exercising, I have more energy, which means that the exercising is more productive and efficient, which also means that I've been losing some more weight than I've used to which is also a good thing. And again, I'm already confused about what I'm talking about, but all I can say is that these days I've been happy though without a good reason. I guess it's still a good thing! Be happy, think positive, and enjoy life:) 

04/17/2012

Like almost every other day, today is another boring day. Nothing much happened. I guess I can talk about the spirit week. Yesterday, it was pajama day. To be honest, I didn't wear my real pajamas. I just wore some soft shorts that are comfortable to be in and wore a hoodie on top. Today, it was mismatch day, and I simply wore a skirt outside of my pants and had a scarf tied in an abnormal way. I wanted to wear different earrings, but then in the morning, I was too sleepy and got lazy to change them. Tomorrow, it's farmers day and actually I'm not sure about what to wear yet. I know that I'll have a straw hat but then the shirt is the problem i'm meeting now. And also, thursday is preppy day. But then i don't really have clothes that will make me look preppy without making me actually looking nerdy. And many people keep mixing up the definition of nerdy and preppy which is actually quite understandable, but then I wondered why the student council didn't decide on nerdy day instead in the beginning. The last day of spirit week is beach day. That's the easiest one for me, since just simply wearing shades would be good already. 

04/16/2012

Today is probably one of the earliest days that I went home since freshmen year started. I didn't know why though. Normally, I like staying at school, hanging out with friends and going out, buying food to eat. I guess it's because it was raining, so I didn't feel like going out, making myself get soaked with the rain. And since I was feeling really sleepy and I have a lot of homework to do, I decided to go home earlier and sleep so that I'll have energy to finish up the load of homework that I have. And surprisingly, I've been working a lot more efficiently than usual, other than the times of writing this blog. I keep getting distracted by music, chats, and of course, Facebook. But like the times when I'm studying for the spanish quiz tomorrow, I was really focused, though my music was still on, but I could stay focused on memorizing the vocabulary and the grammar phrases. But now, somehow, writing this blog post is something that keeps pulling my attention away from it, starting to look for new good music oh Youtube, starting to chat with random people... etc. But thankfully, I'm done with it right now!

04/15/2012

Today is one of the tightest-scheduled days for me. In the morning, I woke up at 7, which is 5 hours earlier than normal weekend days. My whole family went to the sun moon lake, which is in nantou. We went there because we were looking for the people that knew how to plant coffee. Afterwards, we didn't know where to go, and it was only 12 o'clock. We then decided to go to Taichung, to a place that was famous for their bicycle's road. There were SO many people since the weather today was really good at that time. The whole way was 12 km, and of course, we had to go both ways, totaling up to 24 km. To my brother and father, it was really a piece of cake. Normally, my mother would "die", but today, we were smart and she got this electronic one that works kind of like a motorcycle. But then since they all could go smoothly, I was the only one that was really exhausted in the end. Now, I can barely walk since my muscles are killing me and the injury I got before on my knee, dislocating my knee cap twice, is hurting really much. I hope that nothing will really happen to it, since it's spirit week next coming week!

04/12/2012

Today, there wasn't really anything special that happened. But one thing that I was happy about was how I once already gave up on having an A in Biology class this quarter since I have several assignments or quizzes that have low grades. But today after I showered, I saw my friend's status saying that her grade was ugly, so I went to check on mine again, but surprisingly, my B+ has risen back up to an A-. Although it's in the border, I think that there aren't anymore new assignments for me to worry about that might pull my grade down. And I'm really happy how there is air conditioning now in school already since before, for example, in English class, I always can't concentrate because it's too hot, and the classroom lacks oxygen. With the air conditioning turned on, I can concentrate more and the time doesn't feel like it passes that slowly anymore. Also, I'm really looking forward to getting our swim team hoodie that we're going to wear to competitions and look more united and more like a team. Other teams have their shirts or jerseys, but swim team never did have one. I heard that the design was pretty since Patrick made it, and I'm pretty sure I'll like it a lot!

04/11/2012

YAY! We already have the air conditioning turned on today at school. When I just arrived to school, I was talking to my friend, Annie, about how I think it'll still be another month to be suffering before the school were turn on the air conditioning, but ironically, after a few minutes, we started hearing the sound of a machine rumbling. At first, we couldn't believe that it was the air conditioning, but when we found out that it really was, we cheered out loud. The best part was how the air conditioning in the cafeteria is quite strong, so we wouldn't suffer as much during lunch since the lunch food is already torturing enough. At least having a nice temperature in the cafeteria would make the whole time a lot more better. At home, I want to turn it on also in the afternoon when i just get home, but then I think about how everything is getting more and more expensive these days and how polar bears probably are going to go extinct, I decide not to turn it on and just turn on the electric fan instead. Oh wow, I feel like an environmentalist! 

04/10/2012

Today, I took the Geometry and Biology test. The geometry one was okay, but the biology one was a killer. From what I've heard, someone got only 48, and it is out of 100. I was really shocked when I heard it, especially how the smart people were telling me that the test was really hard before I took it and they kept saying how I would fail it or do horribly on it. When I was doing the test, I felt really depressed especially how I felt that the questions were too detailed. I regret how I didn't ask other people what the test mainly focused on and what questions were on it if they still remember any of it. Tonight when I went to check my grades on veracross, I found out that I got a 85, which is quite good, but then when I saw how my grades have dropped from A- to B+, it made me sad for a while, but then it's good how I saw this beautiful dress online and I bought it. In fact, I bought two, the same design, but just different colors. One was blue and the other was black, and since my friend wants it too, she said that I can choose one and she'll buy the other one from me. 

04/09/2012

Today is the first day of school after spring break. To be honest, having to wake up at 6:30 again in the morning is like hell. During the break, I could sleep till 12 everyday, or at least 11. But today, when my alarm clock rang, I felt like turning it off or ignoring it and go back to sleep without being bugged by my mom to wake up. When I finally arrived at school, I realized that nothing changed. Same people, same campus, same faculties, same facilities, and of course, same amount of homework. I haven't taken my Geometry and Biology midterm since I was sick and absent when they were tested. I don't want to take the tests even though people say that I have more time to study, but to be honest, who can really study during such a rare break. I'll be taking both tests tomorrow, but I'm not really fully prepared and I don't want my grades to drop. And after such a long time of not writing consistently on this blogger, I really don't know what I'm writing about right now, and I'm just typing out whatever comes into my mind right now. It'll take some time to get back in track, and I hope that it'll be soon, since there're only two more months left of school and I'll then be a sophomore. 

03/29/2012

Tomorrow is the day! The day of prom, the day of Biology and Geometry midterm exam. But, a very big big big but. I'm sick and I have a fever. I won't be able to go to school tomorrow and to be honest, i'm very worried. Normally, I do better when I take tests together with friends or classmates, because when I take the tests alone, I often lose focus during the tests and will often get lower grades. Also, since there is a one-week break after tomorrow, I wonder if teachers will let me take the test afterwards and not take off points. Today, I stayed at home too, and people may think that I was studying the whole day today, but no. Last night, I barely slept. My running nose kept me from sleeping, since I had to wake up and blow it out. And throughout the day, even when I had a bad headache, I couldn't fall asleep, just because the pain was too unbearable. I tried to do some studying, but the words just went in my brain and then came right out again. I hope that tomorrow I'll feel better because I really need to go to prom, and I don't want to be feeling horrible there, not being able to have fun and enjoy myself. 

03/28/2012

By today, we're basically almost done with all the midterms, leaving me only 2 more to go. The Geometry one, I'm not that worried about it, since to be honest, this chapter is easier than the previous chapters to me. And in the previous chapters, I did quite well, so I'm actually not as worried about it as to how much I'm worrying about Biology. In total, we'll be tested on nine chapters, from chapter 16 to 24. And I only have the memory of the last three chapters, because the teacher has been teaching it in this week. Today I tried to study Biology, but then just by looking at the study guide, I knew directly that there wouldn't be enough time to study all the chapters. To be honest, I'm panicking a bit, but then, what can I do about it? Tomorrow, I don't feel like going to school, since first of all, there isn't going to be a midterm exam tomorrow, and second of all, I really feel like I need some more sleep and time to study than I'm having now. The last reason is because I feel like I'm catching a cold, since I've just sneezed for almost 10 times I think in the past one minute. 

03/27/2012

Tomorrow, I have an expository writing midterm and an english midterm. I'm worried about both actually, because first of all, I don't know whether there will be like 100 questions again on the english midterm like before, and that I really think that the stories are quite hard to understand. Also, for expository writing, we'll be tested on five parts, including a five paragraph essay about analyzing a poem, one paragraph writing about cause and effect, the steps of writing an essay, the parts of an outline, and the definition of the parts of the outline. They aren't really that hard, but the analyzing poem and writing a five paragraph on it, that's crazy. Just simply analyzing a poem that you've seen in the first sight without being able to do some research on it. Also, not being able to type it up is annoying to me too, since I have horrible hand writing and my hand gets sore really easily after writing for a long time and writing a lot. And for English, I'm worried because I'm still not really familiar with the stories on the night before the test, so even though I'll be reading over the stories again later, I worry that the situation won't be better. 

03/26/2012

The only thing that I want to do now is to just sit on my bed, and meditate. Actually, I've started on this post at 10 PM, and it's already 12:40 AM. It took me a long time to shower today, because there are too many things that are jammed in my brain, and it took me a while to try to get things straight and have things sorted in my brain, and put ideas and thoughts in places where they should be in. And finally after I had my mind sorted, I had a lot of "butterflies" to cut, which are needed for student council for the prom. It took me a long time, because I was also memorizing the vocabulary for the English midterm that is coming up on Wednesday. I'm actually very worried about the midterm, because the stories that are going to be in the test are really new and we aren't familiar with them enough yet to be ready for a midterm on them. And I really can't believe that I'm still procrastinating on the midterm week. It's 12:53 AM, actually, 12:56 AM already, and I'm not done with this blog post. And actually, I'm really not sleepy yet, at all. I guess having my mind going through meditation today was right. I feel happy and relaxed now, and I hope that tomorrow will be a good day for me! :)

03/25/2012

Tomorrow is the first day of the midterm testing week. To be honest, I feel that this time I didn't really study. Although I slept really later last night, around 3 AM, but it wasn't because I was studying. I finished doing my homework already at around 1 AM, but when I turned off my computer and went to bed, I suddenly had that meditating moment, and when I came out of the meditation, I looked at my phone and found out that it was already 3 AM. And as soon as I lay my head on the pillow, I fell asleep. And this morning, my mom woke me up an hour earlier than usual, but still, I fell back asleep until 10:40. And throughout the whole day, I only ate, slept, and went to Costco for a bit, and did nothing else. Oh, I did finish revising my essay and did read over the chapter that we'll be tested on in Expository Writing tomorrow, but seriously, other than that, I was just fooling around the whole day today. And thinking about it now, I'm quite nervous about the upcoming tests. I hope that I'll do good, even though I've been slacking off. 

03/22/2012

Today, the people that take part in the musical production this year have been notified that there will be a rehearsal next Friday after lunch. I agree that we should find a day for rehearsal, but seriously. On that day? The day of prom? No one wants to go to prom looking like crap. So with the rehearsal being set on that day, I believe that many people won't be wanting to go and so, why should the school be setting the date of rehearsal on a day that no one would be really focusing and are all worried about not having enough time to dress up. And also, going to prom  would take up a lot of energy. If we still do the rehearsal, people will be tired and won't have as much fun in the prom. And also for the juniors' SAT test that day, I really for sorry for them. I wouldn't be able to concentrate and stay focused during the test. Also, the juniors are supposed to be looking really good for prom that day, but having that test that takes up 4 hours or preparation time, leaving only 2 hours for them to dress up, everyone will be rushing and might even be late for prom. Being late to prom would lead to delaying of the schedule which in the end, would lead to a not-as-fun prom. 

03/21/2012

Today, we're basically sure about what subjects we'll be tested on next week. I don't know if I should say, fortunately, or unfortunately, I have 4 midterms. I know that some people have more than I do, but the ones that I'll be test on, English, Spanish, Expository Writing, and Biology include three of the most annoying subjects that I'll have to spend a lot of time studying on if there is a test about it. The three subjects that bother me the most in these four are English, Spanish and Biology. Although normally I do quite well in Spanish class, this time we're having an oral exam, which scares me, because even though I normally do quite well on paper exams, it's because I have the time to think and have space to write to make my brain function. But on oral exams, I not only won't have the time to think, I don't have the paper for me to figure things out too. And for English, the materials that will be tested on are basically all going to be taught in the near future, but next week is already the finals, I don't know and I don't think that we'll be able to fully understand the stories before the exams. And the same goes for Biology. The chapters include chapter 16 to 24, but the teacher hasn't taught chapter 23 and 24 yet. I wonder how we'll the students can do good on the exams. 

03/20/2012

Next week, it's the midterm week. To be honest, I'm quite worried about it. First of all, the English part. Although there aren't that many vocabulary this quarter, but just simply the poetry unit is one big obstacle for all of us already, and adding the other sections, I personally think that the stories that we're reading this quarter is already harder than the previous ones that we learned before. I don't want to drop all the grades this semester, and I want to keep my As there, and for the Bs, I want to pull them all up, even though it's really hard to be pulling Bs up to As by using the midterm grades. The other subject that I'm very worried about is Biology. The range is so big this time, including 9 chapters and 2 of them, the teacher will be teaching them starting from next class. I don't believe that anyone would be able to digest that quickly, and be able to study for 9 whole chapters of Biology within then time of a little more than a week. And the material that is covered this time is really a lot harder and since the previous midterm and final were mostly on the quizzes that gave beforehand, but this quarter, there rarely were any quizzes, so it's actually really hard to have anything to base the studying on. 

03/19/2012

Tomorrow, there is a biology project due. No one really started on it before today, other than some of the more hard working students, which of course doesn't include me. In fact, I just finished taking the photos a few minutes ago. Also, for the English test that we got back today, I'm not really satisfied with the grades, because I can't accept having a B on English, since I've been having As throughout most of my times when I'm studying in PAS. I know that I've been slacking off, and that many of my quizzes are getting unusually low scores. It's not only happening in English class, but also in Biology, which is very obvious. I used to have grades that are above 90%, but now, the quiz grades have dropped to the lowest, 60%. These aren't acceptable, but I just don't have the motivation to do anything. I don't feel like studying, I don't feel like practicing my oboe, and I don't feel like practicing swimming. All I want to do is to lie on the bed until I die, and do nothing. I know it's impossible, but really, I don't feel any motivation on anything and I'm basically losing faith in myself and I've been giving up a lot of great opportunities for me to grow up and learn, and I'm still giving up some other ones. I don't know what's going on with me, but I guess I'll have to get over it soon. 

03/18/2012

What do you do, when you really miss a person that it hurts already, but you know that it's impossible for that person to be at your side right away, and that that person can't even be online for you because of the time difference and parents issue. It's also really annoying when there are a lot of other interferences that keeps getting into the way. It's only 11 o'clock and I have nothing to do. I wonder if I should be going to sleep but 11 o'clock is the time when people start to more free to chat and I will have more fun chatting with. Actually, just because of that reason, I've spent more than 15 minutes on chatting, which I shouldn't have. I guess I'll go to sleep after I finish this blog post and finish the episode of "How I Met Your Mother" I didn't want to watch it before because when I started to want to watch it, there were too many seasons and episodes, which I felt that it would take up too much time to catch up. But now, after the persuasion from friends, I think that it would be good enough for me to spend the time to watch. 

03/15/2012

Today, I don't think that I need to sleep. I have three tests tomorrow, though one of them is a so-called quiz. But even though it's only said to be a quiz, on that subject, I'm having a really low grade, which didn't happen in the previous quarters. This isn't a good sign, because I know that I've been slacking off a bit, but I didn't know that it would cause such a big difference. So now, every single small quiz matters a lot to me and I really want to pull up my grades. The other two are tests, so obviously they matter a lot and I really can't afford to have a low score on any test right now. Another thing that is making me a bit annoyed is the poetry contest today. I didn't care much about it before, but today, after really competing against others, I wanted to win. After knowing that I lost to Elvis, I felt a feeling of depression come up, but I had to quickly hide it and congrats him. Afterwards, when I think about it, I really felt that it wasn't really fair. No offense to the ESL people, but I think that they should compete among themselves, so that the level is about the same and the judges won't think about the amount of effort spent into each poem and the knowledge that each student has. 

03/14/2012

My arms are very very very very x infinite times sore right now because of swim practice today. I've been lazy for quite a while and I haven't swam seriously in swim team since probably the swim competition last time. Today, our coaches told us that we will be having a competition in Taipei, probably against the other American/ International school's students. So, we had serious practice today, and we had to push ourselves. Whenever we meet the practice that we have to really push ourselves to finish, I know that when I get home, my arms or legs will be really sore. Normally, including today, my arms hurt more than my legs because I think that my legs are a lot stronger than my arms. Anyways, the thing that is in my mind now is the poetry test in English class tomorrow. Today we had an open book quiz, and it was super hard. After class when we talked about it, almost everyone said that it was really hard and didn't know how to do many questions. I hope that the test tomorrow won't be this hard, and also that the poems will be more easier to understand somehow. 

03/13/2012

Today when I went to school, I felt like I was about to die because of the headache. And I not only had a serious headache, I was so sleepy but I had a stomach ache last night so I wasn't able to fall asleep right away, and I woke up several times in the morning. So, when I woke up this morning, I really didn't want to go to school. But my mom said that I had to go to school today, so when I arrived at school, I really was dying. I went to Ms. Sue and asked if I could rest for a bit. I slept there, and when I woke up, it was when one of my friends came in and asked me if I was ok, and I found that it was almost the end of the second period already. I almost jumped off the bed, because I really didn't hear the bell at all, and when other people texted me asking if I was ok, I really didn't wake up. I feel like a pig right now. And because of this, I feel like I've been wasting a lot of money today, since we pay so much to come to school, but I spent the whole morning sleeping in the clinic. If I sleep only for the first period, I would feel better, no offense to my teacher, but because even when I go to class, I won't really pay full attention either. 

03/12/2012

Today I really didn't want to go to school. I had insomnia last night and I couldn't fall asleep until some time around 3:30 in the morning. I did nothing meanwhile. All I could do was sit on my bed, thinking about what I could do to make me fall asleep. At first, I got so bored that I started playing games on my phone, thinking that I might fall asleep after a while. But later on, I got bored out by the games too, so I started to call people and talk on the phone for quite a while. When it turned 3, everyone wanted to go to sleep but I still couldn't sleep. I sat on the bed for a while and finally fell asleep after half an hour. It was a painful day that passes today. In classes, I had a hard time trying to stay awake and focus. Also, I had to skip swim practice because I really had a bad headache that I couldn't stand going to swim in the cold water. Also, they planned on playing ball there, but I got so dizzy that I couldn't stand. I decided to not even go and I went to eat porridge. Porridge is the only food that I like to eat when I'm sick because they taste good and are easy to swallow even if I have a soar throat. 

03/11/2012

These days I really don't feel like going to school and I don't know why. I don't feel any motivation to go to school anymore. It's not really a good thing because I've been slacking off on school work and some of my grades have obviously dropped by quite a bit. This isn't good. At all. Another thing that has been in my mind is the poetry contest. The finalists before were Angela, Allen, and Elvis. But last time in the email that Ms. Sherry sent to the whole school, the title of the poem that was listed beside Angela's name was mine, so we went to ask the school if there was a mistake. When we asked Mr. Dahl, he said that I was the one that's supposed to be in the finalists. I really don't want to read my poem, a poem about me sleeping in history class, in front of the whole school. Also, the other thing that made me not really happy about this is that I know that Angela really cares about this contest, and I feel like I took away something that belongs to her. If the school didn't make that mistake, she probably would feel better. It's like having someone take away something that is supposed to be mine, and especially how I might have been celebrating it the night before I found out it doesn't belong to me. 

03/08/2012

Oh gosh. I finally finished Annie's birthday card. Even though I've been working on it for months, I kind of lacked the motivation a few weeks ago and left all the work to the end. Today, I've been working on it since I got home and I haven't started on any homework other than this blogpost yet. I wonder when I'll be able to sleep tonight, since I have a Spanish quiz tomorrow that includes three grammar tenses and around 90 vocabulary for me to study. I'm already really tired because of sleeping really late these days and being too hyperactive at school. I've found out that actually when you have really little sleep, you become really hyperactive at school. I don't know the scientific reason for this, but I find it really cool although I know it's not a good thing to be staying too late. I hate how I know that I shouldn't be staying up late, but sometimes I just can't fall asleep even when I don't have work to do. I feel that I shouldn't be wasting time on sleeping, since there are only 24 hours everyday, and everyday, there are a lot of things that should be done but aren't being done. I'm not a person that thinks that sleeping is really important 

03/07/2012

Today I finally went to swim team practice. I haven't been swimming since the swimming competition, which was around three weeks ago. The good thing was that all the people that can swim really fast and are skilled weren't able to go, and one of them forgot to bring her swimsuit. This is actually quite funny because she brought her whole swimming bag but forgot the most important thing, the swim suit. I wonder what she was thinking when she was preparing her bag, having all the not as important things but not the most important one. Anyways, since all the fast swimmers didn't go today, it was quite relaxing and I had exercise and had fun. Also, since I am really in a bad mood these days, and I love swimming when I'm sad, after the practice today, I felt a lot better. I think that the main reason why I like swimming when I'm sad is because I love how when you're in the water, everything seems to be quiet and everything that makes you sad will disappear into the water. The other primary reason is because the people that are in swim team are people that I trust a lot and we talk about everything that makes me sad. I really enjoy swimming and I love the people that are in swim team! 

03/06/2012

It's almost Annie's birthday, and the card I'm giving her is really special and I don't think that anyone in PAS has ever made one like this before. So, many people have already been writing birthday cards on hard boards, with photos glued on it. At first, I wanted to do something similar to that, but then I felt that too many have been doing that already and it won't feel special anymore. So, I started to go dig up a lot of pictures of us, from the first picture that we took together, to the most recent ones. I've actually started on this since around September or October. So, I dug up around 30 pictures of us that are memorable, and glued them onto a board, then cut them all off. Then, behind the cards, I would be writing about what happened at that time. This is a really good kind of card I think. People will know how much effort you put into the card and the cards will bring them the good memories that they spent with you. When you some day leave them, they can be looking back at these cards, seeing both your words and the pictures. I hope she'll like this card and the gift I got her!

03/05/2012

Today could be one of my really bad days in my life, since first of all, the most important person in my life has left, we had a History test and I hope that I didn't screw it up because I started studying at 12 last night for it, I was feeling really sick and uncomfortable today, I lost one of my books, I have a whole big pile of homework waiting for me and I have been really sleepy since I came home today. Wow. After typing all that out and going back reading through all of it, I really think that this is such a horrible day I'm having, and all I want to do right now is to close my eyes and go to sleep forever, not waking up to face the reality, with piles of homework to be doing and loads of things to be worrying about. I really want to just throw everything away and take a rest. At least for one minute, just let me be free from all the stress and annoying things. Now, even when I try to close my eyes and not think about anything, in my mind, there are still things that run around, not letting me relax. Even when I'm sleeping, I often have dreams that makes me feel sad and stressed out when I wake up. 

03/04/2012

Tomorrow is the day when one of my best friends, and one of the most important one of them is leaving Taiwan to the States. I'm already over the stage of crying all day and night already. That was so last week haha. But still, whenever I remember the fact that we won't be able to meet for around three years, that makes me really depressed. Annie said that when she was young, she used to have a really close friend because they spend all of the class time and after school time together. And when her friend had to move to the States, they were really sad, just like how I feel right now, but they said that they will Skype and keep in touch. At the beginning, they did Skype every week, but slowly, it became once in two weeks, and in the end, they didn't Skype anymore. I don't want me and that person to end up like that. I'll be really sad if I know that we'll end up like that, since he's super important to me. Another thing that I'm sad about now is that the second most important person in my life will be graduating soon too. There's only a few more than 90 days left. Gosh. I guess I have to learn to deal with people leaving my life. 

03/01/2012

I've found out that the lesser homework that we have, the more we procrastinate. Today, I barely had any homework. All I really needed to do was my Spanish homework, which was only three pages, and study for a Biology quiz about Bacteria for tomorrow. But when I got home, I just sat in front of my computer, and starting Facebooking, thinking that there's still a lot of time for me, so today, I even watched many episodes of "New Girls". It's a really good and funny American TV show. It came out last year, and so far there's only around 15 episodes. I've been quite busy for a few weeks, and wasn't able to watch the newest episodes right when they come out, and when I miss out once, I get lazy or I forget to go back and watch it. This blog post took me hours to finish, due to the little amount of homework that I have today, which is the reason why I'm procrastinating this much. I'm really sleepy again right now but because my really bad mood, I can't fall asleep. Sometimes, Facebook isn't a good thing, not only because of how people get addicted to it, but also, sometimes, people will see things that they don't want to see. Those things that will change your emotions a lot are really annoying, especially when you see them this late at night. 

02/29/2012

Today is the day that only happens once in four years. To be honest, it's just another regular day to me. Doing the same things that I usually do, listening to the same songs, eating the same food, and chatting the same people. Nothing changed even though it's a really special day that comes once in four years. On this day, really, nothing happened and I really don't know what to write about in the blog post now. The only thing that i can think of writing about now is how sleepy I am right now. It's really scary because I normally sleep at 1 or 2 at night, but today, I was feeling sleepy at 10:30 already. I guess it's because these two days, I wake up really early in the morning for no reason. No one woke me up and no alarm clock rang. The bad thing was how I wasn't able to fall back asleep like how I normally can. I somehow feel really depressed when I just wake up these days, and I keep telling myself that i don't know why and what happened to myself, but deep inside, no matter how much I don't want to admit it, I know that it's because of how someone left. I don't want to go into the details. I just feel like complaining and getting my emotions out, hoping that it'll make me happier, but unfortunately, it didn't help. 

02/23/2012

11? No. 1. There's 11 more days till he's going to be leaving Taiwan. But tomorrow, is his last day in PAS, and I won't be there because my whole family will be in Hualien, doing community service. I'm actually really worried about myself, since these days, whenever I think about him leaving, I cry. I wouldn't want to be crying when I'm there helping sick people, and I hope that I won't have time to be thinking about it. One of the things that I really can't stand in life is having to say goodbye to people that are so close to you. I'm a person that doesn't believe that people can stay close with each other for long, once they don't get to see each other for a long period of time. I'm hoping for the best, but expecting the worse. Of course, the best is that he can be back quickly, but it's in fact, impossible, so in this case, the best is that we can still be really close, and obviously, the worse would be that we lose contact. Wow. Just by thinking about us being far apart makes me sad now. I wonder how sad I'll be when I graduate or when me, myself, am the person that is leaving PAS. Even though PAS isn't the place I would want to be in the most, but there still are friends and swim team that makes me want to stay. 

02/22/2012

12. This number may seem like it's nothing, but I'm starting to count down to the day when the most important person in my life now other than my family members is going to leave to the States for 2.5 years. He won't be able to come back to visit due to the military policies in Taiwan, so it means that the only ways we can communicate is via internet or letters. My mom knows about how important this friend is to me, so she's promised me that I could go and visit him during breaks. I'm really happy about it, but thinking about how expensive the tickets would be and how a lot of the breaks that we have in PAS isn't long enough for a trip to the States. Also, even if we have a break here, it doesn't mean that there will be a break in the states. I wonder if we'll still be this close when he moves to the States, but I have faith in us and I hope that we'll still be as close as we are right now after 2.5 years. Even though now, whenever I think about how there's only 12 more days, and actually, at this exact moment, 45 more minutes till there will only be 11 more days, I get really sad. This is the reason why I'm very depressed these days and gets very emotional easily. 

02/21/2012

Today, me and Jasper got into this debate that lasted for one whole hour because of an apple. These days, I start bringing an apple to school everyday, not only because I want to be healthy, but also because I digest quite quickly haha. So, all the time, I get hungry in the second or forth period because I either didn't have enough breakfast or lunch. Before, I used to bring in snacks and other unhealthy things that will fill me up, yet make me fat and unhealthy. But making up the mind of losing weight results in having to limit and control the amount of what I eat. So, I chose to try to stop eating all the snacks and when I get hungry, I'll eat the apple. It's both healthy and can fill up my stomach at the same time. Today, the apple that I brought to school was really sweet and watery. I chose it myself in the store, and when I was eating it in front of the office, Jasper came up to me and smashed it into my face. I got shocked and dropped it. I had this whole debate on... wait, I actually don't know what we were debating about. All I know was that we started it by me telling him that he owes me an apple, then he admits that he "appled" me, but wouldn't give me an apple. It is actually quite hilarious now when I look back at it, but I really shouldn't have wasted one whole hour on it. 

02/20/2012

Why does time have to pass so quickly? Why can't it stop? Just please, slow down for a while. These days, one of my best friends that I care about the most has decided to move to America. At first, he said that he would finish studying this semester, and then leave. I was really sad already, but then thinking that at least I have around four months for me to treasure and cherish. But after a few days, he then told me that his mom hopes that he will be transferring to the States in the beginning of next month. That was a shocking information to me. In the beginning, I felt that one year of him is snatched away from me already, and when I knew that he would probably be leaving next month, I couldn't help but cry. And the worst thing is that today, he told me that his mom will be coming to school to start the process of transferring him. I really can't handle this. These incidents are happening too fast and I can't digest the information quite yet. Why is life so cruel to people? I finally found a friend like him. I am able to share all my secrets with him, knowing that he won't go around talking about it. I am able to trust him with all my heart. I am able to be myself in front of him. Why does life have to pull two such close friends apart this cruelly. 

02/19/2012

Finally, the swimming competition is over. I don't really know if I'm satisfied with the results though. I decided to forfeit the 800 meter one, because I knew that I wouldn't get into the limit, which was 12 minutes, so other than wasting energy to doing it, I decided just to save the energy for 200 meter and 100 meter. For 200 meter, there were 5 people doing it. When I jumped in, water rushed into my goggles. I panicked for a few seconds, since if I wasn't able to see clearly, I would be nervous and it would affect me a LOT. Fortunately, only a little water went into my right eye's goggles. I was still able to swim, and I got the third place in the end. I was satisfied with the results, because I at least won two people, even though I got slower by one second. That was something I couldn't accept though. I've been practicing so much lately, and so the results should show improvement, but for some reason, it showed otherwise. And for the 100 meter, I did poorly according to Frank and Annie. The score was the same as last time, but Frank and Annie said that my arms didn't move quickly. It was as if I was relaxing. That was quite sad to me because I felt like I was dying after the competition, but they thought I was fooling around. So, I am ok with the results this time, even though I expected a little better than this. 

02/15/2012

My life is kind of boring, and I don't know what to write about today. Even though there are funny and interesting things that happen in my days, I just really don't think that it's going to be appropriate to be posted online and let just simply anyone, to read. I care about my reputation and I wouldn't want people to think that "Oh wow! Where is this girl from! Why would she post things like this online?!", no matter if they would actually see me in person, I wouldn't want them to be posting my blog's link everywhere, saying bad things about it. Actually, I'm thinking too far. Who would want to read a blog named "G9 PAS English Extra Credit Blogger"? I wouldn't even if I opened the page by accident. And even if this one person got bored and read over it with inappropriate material, they wouldn't be that bored to go spread it with their friends. It's not like I know their friends or what, so no one would really care about what's in it, and they would just think that person who shared the link is a total freak and has no life, reading some stranger's blogger, and even sharing it with friends. And wow, after reading through this post, I found out that my life is really boring actually. 

02/14/2012

I don't really know what to write about on today's blog post. All I can think of now is sleeping. I am really very tired right now because I had a lot of activities after school today and was in a rush to do everything. First, I had to go home and then go back to school after around twenty minutes. Twenty minutes, an amount of time that isn't long enough to do anything, but yet not too short for nothing to be done. I don't want to and don't feel like going into the details of what I've done today. I got home at some time around 10 at night and to be honest, I am really exhausted now and I'll go to sleep right after I finish this blog post. For all the homework that is due tomorrow, I used up all my remaining energy from today and I hope that the quality won't be that bad. Although, I'm actually kind of afraid about my expository writing quiz that is coming up tomorrow, because I haven't been paying full attention in class lately and I forgot to bring my textbook home today. The last thing that I'm afraid about is the upcoming swimming competition. I didn't go to practice today because I had stuff to do, and I'll go tomorrow. I hope the results will improve!

02/13/2012

Today is the start of the last week of swim practice before the competition coming up this weekend. To be honest, I am really not satisfied with the results of today's practice. In the beginning, I got tired really early, and looking at the events that I'm enrolled in, I am really afraid that I can't do well in them. Also, I have this event, the 800 meter sprint. Even though there's only one person, which is me, in the competition, it doesn't mean that I can get the first place no matter what. There is a time limit for all of the events, and for the 800 meter one, the limit is 12 minutes. Today, I practiced 400 meter and timed it. The result is too scary, with a 7 minutes and 30 seconds. That is way too slow. If I multiply the time, it is way out of the limit. It's 3 minutes more, and when swimming 800, the second half will definitely be slower than the first half, which means that the official result of my event will be out of the limit for more than 3 minutes. Even though my teammates keep telling me that because it's the competition that day, my speed will go up more that day, but 3 minutes or more is really impossible to change within 5 days. I don't know what to do with that event now, because I kind of want to forfeit it, but my teammates and coaches tell me not to.

02/12/2012

Just right now, when I was typing the title, which is also the date, I realized that Valentines Day is right around the corner. And since it's almost valentines day, I found out that there are a lot of funny posts on Facebook or on the statuses that people are posting on either Skype or Yahoo Messenger. For example, a picture i saw on Facebook was saying that people are going to go to the theatre in a whole group, and buying all the odd number tickets, so that no couples can sit together. Also, there are people asking where they can buy top quality sunglasses so that their eyes won't get hurt by the strong brightness caused by the in love couples. They say that there is a strong light when couples are together, because of the love and the chemical reactions between them. I actually enjoyed reading all those funny comments and statuses, because I was really wondering where people get all these ideas. No matter how many times I read over them, I first think that it's such a good idea, and then think about the movie theatre idea, and realize that it's really such a great idea, but I believe that no one would go there to find themselves surrounded with couples, and themselves alone. 

02/09/2012

Today, it was the annual science fair official day. We had normal classes for the first three periods and in the last period in the morning, we were allowed to do the final decorations and set up the posters. Our group had to paint our "lips" in the early morning, hoping that it'll dry after three short periods. Even though it didn't really dry as much as we hoped, fortunately, it was dry enough for us to finish up the parts where we didn't finish. When we taped the lips on the big board, it seemed like it would work, but after a while, presenting it to other people, and while the judges were listening to the group before us, our poster collapsed. It scared us because of the judges and that we were afraid that it wouldn't stand. It was good that in the end, it did stand, though many times, the poster almost broke apart too. After presenting, I went around the school, looking at other people's posters. Some of them were absolutely amazing. In the end, for the closing ceremony, even though I really wanted a prize, I wasn't expecting one. So when they called out our team's names, I almost cheered out loud. I'm really satisfied with the results and I'm thankful for being in this team!

02/08/2012

Tomorrow is the science fair and our group, even though our group started early on the experiment, there were too many things that we didn't expect would happen. Today, both of my teammates, Charlotte and Ivy came to my house to do the project and even though they stayed till almost 11 at night, we still weren't able to finish our poster, since Ivy and Charlotte had that crazy idea about making a 3D mouth as our poster since our topic was about soaking teeth into drinks to see which kind of drink causes the teeth to decay the most within a month without cleaning it. In the end we found out that beer decays teeth the most. When we were doing our project, we all tried to focus and do our best to finish up the work. But, a big mouth that was 3D and has to contain all of our information isn't that easy to make. We had difficulties when finding the materials to use for the poster and also, when they left, I had a mission to finish as much as I can on the poster, in which I had to do something like paper mache to shape the lips. In the end, I didn't have enough glue to finish it and so there were paper towels flying around when there is wind. Also, because we had to color it red with paint, I knew that paint would help stick them on the board, but Charlotte by accident, took home all my paint so I couldn't do it either. I'm really frustrated now and I hope that we can do our poster for the whole morning tomorrow.

02/07/2012

There's two more days till the science fair. Every year, this is the time when it's the funniest to watch people rush in and out of school, asking people about their science fair projects and doing their surveys...etc. Just everyone are doing the last minute work. Surprisingly though, people can always get the work done and the quality really isn't as bad as other people would expect. Today, Charlotte came to my house to do the science fair poster. Ivy couldn't come because she didn't know that we were supposed to come and she thought that we could do enough work in school that is reasonable, but apparently, we couldn't do much of the work due to the English redo reading questions that both Ivy and I had to do, and how Charlotte had a class named theatre dance, which ended about the same time as the English thing did, which was almost 5 o'clock. We had to finish up our experiment and gather data. There was a lot of work to be done and the time was limited. Today when Charlotte came to my house, even though we tried to work really efficiently, we sort of got distracted by Facebook and chatting. We did a lot of work, but looking at what's not done yet, it felt like the load of work didn't get lesser. 

02/06/2012

After swimming team practice today, I regret that I went to play basketball yesterday for one whole hour because it made both my arms and my legs unsurprisingly sore afterwards. And when I had to have swim practice today, and I had to practice for my 800 meter freestyle, and in sports team practice, Frank would want me to swim more than other people for sure because the longest distance the other people are swimming is 200 meters, while I have to swim for 800 meters. When other people knew that I was swimming the 800 meter, they were all really surprised, since not many people would want to do that for a competition. I'm quite nervous about it too actually, and when Frank timed my 400 meter today, I timed the time by two and the result was very bad. It was out of the standard. Seeing the time being so long, I felt disappointed at myself and wanted to quit the competition, thinking that even if I went, I wouldn't win, so why bother? In the end, I know that I can't think that way, or else it'll really be impossible for me to win something. I'll be practicing more and I hope that I'll do good! WISH ME LUCK!

02/05/2012

Everyday, I'm counting down on how many more days there are till the swimming competition. Today, there's only 13 days left. I'm really nervous about it since I've stopped practicing for a little bit of time. This probably is the time that I practiced the least, yet am involved in the events that I'm not confident in. This time, I'm involved in 100, 200 and 800 meters freestyle. I'm fine with 100 and 200 since I'm involved in these in every competition, but I'm really not good in 800 meter. I only finished 800 meters once in my whole life and now there's only two weeks left. This isn't a good sign, especially how my left foot still hurts when I move it left and right, which means that practicing swimming now wouldn't be a good choice. Also, having this little time to practice, and that many things to do, including studying and finishing homework, I really don't think that there's that many excessive time for me to practice, and especially how swimming actually requires a lot of time, changing your clothes, getting wet, and showering afterwards is quite annoying, but since I like swimming, I guess I'll have to deal with all the inconveniences. 

02/01/2012

Today during swimming team's practice, I wore flippers to practice my breaststroke's kicking, but since when wearing it, people can go forward in real fast speed, I got excited and kept kicking real hard, which on the final kick, I kicked with all my force, which resulted in a twisted ankle. At first, I thought that I was having a cramp and it hurt just like when people have a cramp. I sat on the side first, but after a while, I found out that I could move my foot upwards and downwards, but not sideways. Whenever I move it sideways, the sharp pain come back, almost knocking over my consciousness for a few times. I kept yelling in the pool, and after the pain went away, I tried moving my legs. It wasn't that bad, but I still couldn't walk normally on it. When walking, I had to inhale and exhale deeply every time. Frank told me that I had to put an ice pack on it when I get home, but the problem was that the weather is already too cold for me, and having to put ice on my skin was too much for me. The other that I'm really worried about is the competition coming up in 17 days. I don't think that I can be practicing these days, but counting down the days everyday, it scares me a lot about how I won't be able to compete but I've been practicing a lot already for it. 

01/30/2012

Today is the last day of our Chinese New Year Break, or in the way our school named it, Lunar New Year Break. It wasn't quite long, only 10 days for the non-juniors, but it wasn't too short for not being able to go anywhere. On the weekend, my uncle and grandparents came to Hsinchu, but nothing really changed, since my brother and I stayed in the room most of the time too, just like the usual. After two days, we all went to Taipei and stayed there for two nights. One the first day, it was so boring. Other than the times when we went out for dinner, we stayed at home, staring at the boring TV shows or playing cards. Cards were fun at first but then got boring after too many rounds. Even though we were sort of gambling, and I won the most, but I didn't get the money that I should've got. I'm fine with it too though, haha, since I've used my parents money to buy a lot of clothes and accessories during this break, definitely more than the amount of money I've won by gambling. On the second day, I spent two hours shopping with the helper in my home because no one in my family wanted to go out, but I couldn't stand staying at home all day again. 

1/19/2012

It'll be the last day of the finals week which also is the last day of this semester. Tomorrow, I'll be having the Geometry and Spanish finals. They are the easiest subjects comparing to the other subjects, and because of that, as usual, I procrastinated, but I procrastinated even more. It's already quite late at night, but I haven't done studying for any of the subjects, and didn't finish on my homework yet too. I really don't like how these days I procrastinate this much, but I just am not able to stay in focus for that long. I tried to deactivate my Facebook account so that I might be able to stay focused, but obviously, I failed. I reactivated it after a few hours, finding myself eager to stay updated on anything that just happened to people on Facebook. Sometimes I hate the invention of these social networks, being such a big distracter for people like me. In the upcoming break, I don't know what I'm going to do actually, I believe that my family will go up to Taipei for one or two days, and after that, I think we don't have anymore plans. I hope that my parents will let me go out with friends to the movies or KTV, since I really miss going to places without being stressed about schoolwork. 

01/18/2012

Finally, I've gone through half of the final exams this week. It's been a hard time, and the total amount of sleep I've got in these three day won't go more than ten hours. If there is a final exams month, I bet I would be dead during the second week. I really don't need to be sleeping this late, but due to how much i procrastinate, I can't help but sleep late in order to finish the homework and the studying. The English test today we got wasn't actually as hard as I've expected it to be, although there were still around 10 questions that I either didn't know the answer to, or wasn't sure about. I guessed for all of those, and I hope that I wouldn't luckily get them right. Tomorrow, there will still be another portion of the test on English, and I hope that the questions will be around this same level. I've memorized the vocabulary already, although not really sure if I'll remember them all tomorrow. The stories, I've read through them thoroughly already, and I know about what happened in all stories, but what worries we is if I've misunderstood something in the story and didn't know, and wouldn't be able to do the questions on the test correctly. 

01/17/2012

I've finished the Biology final exam today too, and even though I had quite a few questions that I wasn't sure about, and in total, I guessed for seven questions. I wasn't sure about five of them, and the other two, I was sure that I didn't even understand the question and I didn't know the answers to them. When doing the test, it was quite funny in the beginning how people kept coughing, as if they were telling others the answers or something. Later on, people became more into the situation and quieted down. The test wasn't actually that hard, but the part that made me angry was how I studied for photosynthesis and cellular respiration for almost two hours last night, but in the test, there were only two questions that weren't detailed at all. You probably didn't even have to study the chapter to know how to answer those questions. Other than that, most of the questions were fairly easy, unlike the chemistry class. From what I've heard, almost everyone came out, saying that they'd be satisfied if they didn't fail it. Someone even set their goal as 40%. I'm actually glad now that I switched to Biology instead of staying in chemistry. 

1/16/2012

Today, I took my history final exam already, and I'm quite confident in it actually. Even though I was unsure about one or two questions, in the end, I believe that I got them right and should get most of the points or full points. Also, I'm happy about how I got the bonus question of guessing who a man was, with only his picture shown to us. I didn't know how I got it right. The picture looked familiar to me somehow, and without really knowing it, I put down his name, and got it correct. I was able to answer all the questions and meet the requirements stated in the question, and for writing all those words and rushing through the questions, thinking that I wouldn't be able to stay after class to finish up the test, my hands were shaking with pain in the middle of the test. Tomorrow, I'll be having my Biology midterm, which is one of the hardest ones to me I believe. We're being tested on 10 chapters, and a lot of the things I've learned before have totally disappeared from my brain. Reviewing took a long time too, because Biology has actually a lot of things to understand and memorize at the same time. After studying one chapter, I feel like I've forgotten something from the previous chapter. I hope that I can do well on this final exam too!!