01/11/2012

Today was a really tiring day. I've been sick since the day of the winter dance, and I didn't recover from it yet. I know that it's been a long time, and in the meantime, I could've gotten better, but since I joined swim team and I always don't dry my hair properly after practice and I think that should be the reason why I never recover completely. Today, it became worse. I started to have a fever and am coughing my lungs out. Coughing that hard makes me feel like throwing up so bad that in classes, I often make a voice that sounds like I'm about to throw up which always scare a lot of people away. It is actually quite funny seeing their reactions, even though I always feel really bad after I make the throwing up sound since it really makes my throat ache really bad and feels like it's burning. I don't want to be sick all the time too, since it's final week next week and in one month, it's the swimming competition. I take all of these really seriously and due to my personality of being competitive, I don't want to lose any of these and I want to be healthy too. But being healthy and achieving those goals won't go together and if I really have to choose one of those, I would choose to achieve those goals rather than to regain my health.