03/19/2012

Tomorrow, there is a biology project due. No one really started on it before today, other than some of the more hard working students, which of course doesn't include me. In fact, I just finished taking the photos a few minutes ago. Also, for the English test that we got back today, I'm not really satisfied with the grades, because I can't accept having a B on English, since I've been having As throughout most of my times when I'm studying in PAS. I know that I've been slacking off, and that many of my quizzes are getting unusually low scores. It's not only happening in English class, but also in Biology, which is very obvious. I used to have grades that are above 90%, but now, the quiz grades have dropped to the lowest, 60%. These aren't acceptable, but I just don't have the motivation to do anything. I don't feel like studying, I don't feel like practicing my oboe, and I don't feel like practicing swimming. All I want to do is to lie on the bed until I die, and do nothing. I know it's impossible, but really, I don't feel any motivation on anything and I'm basically losing faith in myself and I've been giving up a lot of great opportunities for me to grow up and learn, and I'm still giving up some other ones. I don't know what's going on with me, but I guess I'll have to get over it soon.