02/29/2012

Today is the day that only happens once in four years. To be honest, it's just another regular day to me. Doing the same things that I usually do, listening to the same songs, eating the same food, and chatting the same people. Nothing changed even though it's a really special day that comes once in four years. On this day, really, nothing happened and I really don't know what to write about in the blog post now. The only thing that i can think of writing about now is how sleepy I am right now. It's really scary because I normally sleep at 1 or 2 at night, but today, I was feeling sleepy at 10:30 already. I guess it's because these two days, I wake up really early in the morning for no reason. No one woke me up and no alarm clock rang. The bad thing was how I wasn't able to fall back asleep like how I normally can. I somehow feel really depressed when I just wake up these days, and I keep telling myself that i don't know why and what happened to myself, but deep inside, no matter how much I don't want to admit it, I know that it's because of how someone left. I don't want to go into the details. I just feel like complaining and getting my emotions out, hoping that it'll make me happier, but unfortunately, it didn't help. 

02/23/2012

11? No. 1. There's 11 more days till he's going to be leaving Taiwan. But tomorrow, is his last day in PAS, and I won't be there because my whole family will be in Hualien, doing community service. I'm actually really worried about myself, since these days, whenever I think about him leaving, I cry. I wouldn't want to be crying when I'm there helping sick people, and I hope that I won't have time to be thinking about it. One of the things that I really can't stand in life is having to say goodbye to people that are so close to you. I'm a person that doesn't believe that people can stay close with each other for long, once they don't get to see each other for a long period of time. I'm hoping for the best, but expecting the worse. Of course, the best is that he can be back quickly, but it's in fact, impossible, so in this case, the best is that we can still be really close, and obviously, the worse would be that we lose contact. Wow. Just by thinking about us being far apart makes me sad now. I wonder how sad I'll be when I graduate or when me, myself, am the person that is leaving PAS. Even though PAS isn't the place I would want to be in the most, but there still are friends and swim team that makes me want to stay. 

02/22/2012

12. This number may seem like it's nothing, but I'm starting to count down to the day when the most important person in my life now other than my family members is going to leave to the States for 2.5 years. He won't be able to come back to visit due to the military policies in Taiwan, so it means that the only ways we can communicate is via internet or letters. My mom knows about how important this friend is to me, so she's promised me that I could go and visit him during breaks. I'm really happy about it, but thinking about how expensive the tickets would be and how a lot of the breaks that we have in PAS isn't long enough for a trip to the States. Also, even if we have a break here, it doesn't mean that there will be a break in the states. I wonder if we'll still be this close when he moves to the States, but I have faith in us and I hope that we'll still be as close as we are right now after 2.5 years. Even though now, whenever I think about how there's only 12 more days, and actually, at this exact moment, 45 more minutes till there will only be 11 more days, I get really sad. This is the reason why I'm very depressed these days and gets very emotional easily. 

02/21/2012

Today, me and Jasper got into this debate that lasted for one whole hour because of an apple. These days, I start bringing an apple to school everyday, not only because I want to be healthy, but also because I digest quite quickly haha. So, all the time, I get hungry in the second or forth period because I either didn't have enough breakfast or lunch. Before, I used to bring in snacks and other unhealthy things that will fill me up, yet make me fat and unhealthy. But making up the mind of losing weight results in having to limit and control the amount of what I eat. So, I chose to try to stop eating all the snacks and when I get hungry, I'll eat the apple. It's both healthy and can fill up my stomach at the same time. Today, the apple that I brought to school was really sweet and watery. I chose it myself in the store, and when I was eating it in front of the office, Jasper came up to me and smashed it into my face. I got shocked and dropped it. I had this whole debate on... wait, I actually don't know what we were debating about. All I know was that we started it by me telling him that he owes me an apple, then he admits that he "appled" me, but wouldn't give me an apple. It is actually quite hilarious now when I look back at it, but I really shouldn't have wasted one whole hour on it. 

02/20/2012

Why does time have to pass so quickly? Why can't it stop? Just please, slow down for a while. These days, one of my best friends that I care about the most has decided to move to America. At first, he said that he would finish studying this semester, and then leave. I was really sad already, but then thinking that at least I have around four months for me to treasure and cherish. But after a few days, he then told me that his mom hopes that he will be transferring to the States in the beginning of next month. That was a shocking information to me. In the beginning, I felt that one year of him is snatched away from me already, and when I knew that he would probably be leaving next month, I couldn't help but cry. And the worst thing is that today, he told me that his mom will be coming to school to start the process of transferring him. I really can't handle this. These incidents are happening too fast and I can't digest the information quite yet. Why is life so cruel to people? I finally found a friend like him. I am able to share all my secrets with him, knowing that he won't go around talking about it. I am able to trust him with all my heart. I am able to be myself in front of him. Why does life have to pull two such close friends apart this cruelly. 

02/19/2012

Finally, the swimming competition is over. I don't really know if I'm satisfied with the results though. I decided to forfeit the 800 meter one, because I knew that I wouldn't get into the limit, which was 12 minutes, so other than wasting energy to doing it, I decided just to save the energy for 200 meter and 100 meter. For 200 meter, there were 5 people doing it. When I jumped in, water rushed into my goggles. I panicked for a few seconds, since if I wasn't able to see clearly, I would be nervous and it would affect me a LOT. Fortunately, only a little water went into my right eye's goggles. I was still able to swim, and I got the third place in the end. I was satisfied with the results, because I at least won two people, even though I got slower by one second. That was something I couldn't accept though. I've been practicing so much lately, and so the results should show improvement, but for some reason, it showed otherwise. And for the 100 meter, I did poorly according to Frank and Annie. The score was the same as last time, but Frank and Annie said that my arms didn't move quickly. It was as if I was relaxing. That was quite sad to me because I felt like I was dying after the competition, but they thought I was fooling around. So, I am ok with the results this time, even though I expected a little better than this. 

02/15/2012

My life is kind of boring, and I don't know what to write about today. Even though there are funny and interesting things that happen in my days, I just really don't think that it's going to be appropriate to be posted online and let just simply anyone, to read. I care about my reputation and I wouldn't want people to think that "Oh wow! Where is this girl from! Why would she post things like this online?!", no matter if they would actually see me in person, I wouldn't want them to be posting my blog's link everywhere, saying bad things about it. Actually, I'm thinking too far. Who would want to read a blog named "G9 PAS English Extra Credit Blogger"? I wouldn't even if I opened the page by accident. And even if this one person got bored and read over it with inappropriate material, they wouldn't be that bored to go spread it with their friends. It's not like I know their friends or what, so no one would really care about what's in it, and they would just think that person who shared the link is a total freak and has no life, reading some stranger's blogger, and even sharing it with friends. And wow, after reading through this post, I found out that my life is really boring actually. 

02/14/2012

I don't really know what to write about on today's blog post. All I can think of now is sleeping. I am really very tired right now because I had a lot of activities after school today and was in a rush to do everything. First, I had to go home and then go back to school after around twenty minutes. Twenty minutes, an amount of time that isn't long enough to do anything, but yet not too short for nothing to be done. I don't want to and don't feel like going into the details of what I've done today. I got home at some time around 10 at night and to be honest, I am really exhausted now and I'll go to sleep right after I finish this blog post. For all the homework that is due tomorrow, I used up all my remaining energy from today and I hope that the quality won't be that bad. Although, I'm actually kind of afraid about my expository writing quiz that is coming up tomorrow, because I haven't been paying full attention in class lately and I forgot to bring my textbook home today. The last thing that I'm afraid about is the upcoming swimming competition. I didn't go to practice today because I had stuff to do, and I'll go tomorrow. I hope the results will improve!

02/13/2012

Today is the start of the last week of swim practice before the competition coming up this weekend. To be honest, I am really not satisfied with the results of today's practice. In the beginning, I got tired really early, and looking at the events that I'm enrolled in, I am really afraid that I can't do well in them. Also, I have this event, the 800 meter sprint. Even though there's only one person, which is me, in the competition, it doesn't mean that I can get the first place no matter what. There is a time limit for all of the events, and for the 800 meter one, the limit is 12 minutes. Today, I practiced 400 meter and timed it. The result is too scary, with a 7 minutes and 30 seconds. That is way too slow. If I multiply the time, it is way out of the limit. It's 3 minutes more, and when swimming 800, the second half will definitely be slower than the first half, which means that the official result of my event will be out of the limit for more than 3 minutes. Even though my teammates keep telling me that because it's the competition that day, my speed will go up more that day, but 3 minutes or more is really impossible to change within 5 days. I don't know what to do with that event now, because I kind of want to forfeit it, but my teammates and coaches tell me not to.

02/12/2012

Just right now, when I was typing the title, which is also the date, I realized that Valentines Day is right around the corner. And since it's almost valentines day, I found out that there are a lot of funny posts on Facebook or on the statuses that people are posting on either Skype or Yahoo Messenger. For example, a picture i saw on Facebook was saying that people are going to go to the theatre in a whole group, and buying all the odd number tickets, so that no couples can sit together. Also, there are people asking where they can buy top quality sunglasses so that their eyes won't get hurt by the strong brightness caused by the in love couples. They say that there is a strong light when couples are together, because of the love and the chemical reactions between them. I actually enjoyed reading all those funny comments and statuses, because I was really wondering where people get all these ideas. No matter how many times I read over them, I first think that it's such a good idea, and then think about the movie theatre idea, and realize that it's really such a great idea, but I believe that no one would go there to find themselves surrounded with couples, and themselves alone. 

02/09/2012

Today, it was the annual science fair official day. We had normal classes for the first three periods and in the last period in the morning, we were allowed to do the final decorations and set up the posters. Our group had to paint our "lips" in the early morning, hoping that it'll dry after three short periods. Even though it didn't really dry as much as we hoped, fortunately, it was dry enough for us to finish up the parts where we didn't finish. When we taped the lips on the big board, it seemed like it would work, but after a while, presenting it to other people, and while the judges were listening to the group before us, our poster collapsed. It scared us because of the judges and that we were afraid that it wouldn't stand. It was good that in the end, it did stand, though many times, the poster almost broke apart too. After presenting, I went around the school, looking at other people's posters. Some of them were absolutely amazing. In the end, for the closing ceremony, even though I really wanted a prize, I wasn't expecting one. So when they called out our team's names, I almost cheered out loud. I'm really satisfied with the results and I'm thankful for being in this team!

02/08/2012

Tomorrow is the science fair and our group, even though our group started early on the experiment, there were too many things that we didn't expect would happen. Today, both of my teammates, Charlotte and Ivy came to my house to do the project and even though they stayed till almost 11 at night, we still weren't able to finish our poster, since Ivy and Charlotte had that crazy idea about making a 3D mouth as our poster since our topic was about soaking teeth into drinks to see which kind of drink causes the teeth to decay the most within a month without cleaning it. In the end we found out that beer decays teeth the most. When we were doing our project, we all tried to focus and do our best to finish up the work. But, a big mouth that was 3D and has to contain all of our information isn't that easy to make. We had difficulties when finding the materials to use for the poster and also, when they left, I had a mission to finish as much as I can on the poster, in which I had to do something like paper mache to shape the lips. In the end, I didn't have enough glue to finish it and so there were paper towels flying around when there is wind. Also, because we had to color it red with paint, I knew that paint would help stick them on the board, but Charlotte by accident, took home all my paint so I couldn't do it either. I'm really frustrated now and I hope that we can do our poster for the whole morning tomorrow.

02/07/2012

There's two more days till the science fair. Every year, this is the time when it's the funniest to watch people rush in and out of school, asking people about their science fair projects and doing their surveys...etc. Just everyone are doing the last minute work. Surprisingly though, people can always get the work done and the quality really isn't as bad as other people would expect. Today, Charlotte came to my house to do the science fair poster. Ivy couldn't come because she didn't know that we were supposed to come and she thought that we could do enough work in school that is reasonable, but apparently, we couldn't do much of the work due to the English redo reading questions that both Ivy and I had to do, and how Charlotte had a class named theatre dance, which ended about the same time as the English thing did, which was almost 5 o'clock. We had to finish up our experiment and gather data. There was a lot of work to be done and the time was limited. Today when Charlotte came to my house, even though we tried to work really efficiently, we sort of got distracted by Facebook and chatting. We did a lot of work, but looking at what's not done yet, it felt like the load of work didn't get lesser. 

02/06/2012

After swimming team practice today, I regret that I went to play basketball yesterday for one whole hour because it made both my arms and my legs unsurprisingly sore afterwards. And when I had to have swim practice today, and I had to practice for my 800 meter freestyle, and in sports team practice, Frank would want me to swim more than other people for sure because the longest distance the other people are swimming is 200 meters, while I have to swim for 800 meters. When other people knew that I was swimming the 800 meter, they were all really surprised, since not many people would want to do that for a competition. I'm quite nervous about it too actually, and when Frank timed my 400 meter today, I timed the time by two and the result was very bad. It was out of the standard. Seeing the time being so long, I felt disappointed at myself and wanted to quit the competition, thinking that even if I went, I wouldn't win, so why bother? In the end, I know that I can't think that way, or else it'll really be impossible for me to win something. I'll be practicing more and I hope that I'll do good! WISH ME LUCK!

02/05/2012

Everyday, I'm counting down on how many more days there are till the swimming competition. Today, there's only 13 days left. I'm really nervous about it since I've stopped practicing for a little bit of time. This probably is the time that I practiced the least, yet am involved in the events that I'm not confident in. This time, I'm involved in 100, 200 and 800 meters freestyle. I'm fine with 100 and 200 since I'm involved in these in every competition, but I'm really not good in 800 meter. I only finished 800 meters once in my whole life and now there's only two weeks left. This isn't a good sign, especially how my left foot still hurts when I move it left and right, which means that practicing swimming now wouldn't be a good choice. Also, having this little time to practice, and that many things to do, including studying and finishing homework, I really don't think that there's that many excessive time for me to practice, and especially how swimming actually requires a lot of time, changing your clothes, getting wet, and showering afterwards is quite annoying, but since I like swimming, I guess I'll have to deal with all the inconveniences. 

02/01/2012

Today during swimming team's practice, I wore flippers to practice my breaststroke's kicking, but since when wearing it, people can go forward in real fast speed, I got excited and kept kicking real hard, which on the final kick, I kicked with all my force, which resulted in a twisted ankle. At first, I thought that I was having a cramp and it hurt just like when people have a cramp. I sat on the side first, but after a while, I found out that I could move my foot upwards and downwards, but not sideways. Whenever I move it sideways, the sharp pain come back, almost knocking over my consciousness for a few times. I kept yelling in the pool, and after the pain went away, I tried moving my legs. It wasn't that bad, but I still couldn't walk normally on it. When walking, I had to inhale and exhale deeply every time. Frank told me that I had to put an ice pack on it when I get home, but the problem was that the weather is already too cold for me, and having to put ice on my skin was too much for me. The other that I'm really worried about is the competition coming up in 17 days. I don't think that I can be practicing these days, but counting down the days everyday, it scares me a lot about how I won't be able to compete but I've been practicing a lot already for it.