11/21/2011

Today is the performance, and the last one for me in the Taipei orchestra I've been attending since grade 3. I thought that I wouldn't feel sad, and yes, I didn't particularly feel sad, but I still had that moment of hesitation. I was hesitating about whether I should or shouldn't go back. Even though it's really tiring, I still feel that there are those benefits of going there. For example, today's performance, I learned a lot. For the practice times this time, I only attended around half of them. And on stage today during the rehearsal, I just realized how unfamiliar I was to the songs. I learned not to be too proud of myself, and think that I didn't need to practice and could play the songs well. I was really nervous on stage since I knew that there was a solo part today. Yes, I'm not exaggerating. I knew that I have a solo during the rehearsal today. It's quite pathetic, since I'm the "chair" of the oboes. I didn't really do well in this performance, which is quite depressing too since it's, in fact, my last performance. Still, I won't be going back and it's sad now when I think of it. I'll miss my friends and all the fun I had, and I guess someday I might go back and visit them!