10/2/2011

This weekend, there was another swimming competition. This one is for the whole Hsinchu City and the first places would be able to attend the competition for the whole country. If I could, I wouldn't want to talk about this forever, since it's the most humiliating competition to me. Before, I've never been gotten a place lower than the fifth place, but this time, everything was so different. I swam the 50 meter and 200 meter freestyles, and I got the ninth place for the 50 meter and the last place for the 200 meter. It was so humiliating that I couldn't stop crying for quite a long time. Whenever I thought of it, my tears just kept pouring out. Although I could happily say that I've improved in the 50 meter dash, but I still didn't get into my goal, the first three places. I didn't even get into the first eight. Just writing this blog post makes me want to cry again. And for the 200 meter one, I got slower by one second. It may not seem like it's a lot, but to me, I feel like it's not a good thing to stay the same, and this time, it got even worse by slowing down. It really isn't a good sign, and I kept thinking of excuses to make myself feel happier, but I couldn't think of any. This time, I really felt humiliated, but next time, I swear that I'll get them back.