10/20/2011

These days, things are just pure chaotic. It feels like the world is tearing apart. I know that what I've done was really bad, and I'm not going to deny the fact that I've done it and hurt people, but I really do want to change. I did the same mistake before and I promised that I would change, but stupidly, I did it again. This time, not only the people I hurt got angry at me, one of my best friends that always listens to me got angry too and decided almost not to talk to me until I show that I really changed. I really regret doing everything I've done, but I guess, what's done is done, and regretting now would make a difference. The only way of making a difference would be to change myself and really know that the consequences of doing some actions will be unforgivable. Also, knowing how hurt some people were, made me feel even more guilty and no one really knows how much pain I'm suffering too. Everyone feels sorry for the people that were hurt, but really, no ones feels sorry for the people that did the hurting, no matter how sorry or how sad or how much they regret from doing it.