Tuesday, October 18, 2011
10/18/2011
Today, could be one of my most chaotic day in years. It's quite personal, so I won't be talking about it in detail. But basically, it's that I did something wrong that is really unforgivable. To the person I hurt, that person felt that I betrayed him/her. I really regret everything that I've done, but I really think that nothing much could be done to make that person feel better now. Now thinking about it, I really feel like jumping off the building. I've never regretted doing something more than this. I am really frustrated and depressed right now but I don't know what to do to change things and make up what I've done. Some people suggested me to leave him/her alone, some people suggested me to write him/ her an apology letter. But since the person's friend told me not to even say hi to him at school, and that it's impossible for him/her to forgive me. I really don't know what to do now and it's not that I'm trying to extend the length of my blog post, it's just that there's nothing other than the things i've just said in my mind now. I would really want to apologize, but things really are so complicated that I don't know what to do, what to think and what actions to do. I'm really afraid that if I make one more wrong decision, things will get worse and there won't be any more chance to make what I've done up.
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