12/15/2011

Our sixth anual PAS Christmas Performance was held today. Even though a lot of us made some minor mistakes, and Howard Ouyang wasn't able to come because he was sick, I believe that we still did a fantabulous job. In fact, everyone in our school did a really good job. It surprised me about how creative people are in our school. Another important event today was the raffle ticket drawing. The presents this year were really good, and people loved them, especially the Beats by Dre earphones. Ben Huang got so lucky. He bought 2 raffle tickets, and got picked out of the 600 raffle tickets, getting both the Beats earphones. Also, if felt like some people spent ALL of the money buying the tickets. For example, Ariel got so many gifts today, one after another. Also, the other event that happened was guessing who's the secret Santa. Students were to volunteer to go up on stage and say a teacher's name that they think should be the secret Santa. Almost all the teachers were chosen, but none of us got it right. The correct answer was Ms. Sue, which didn't surprise us. I guess no one chose her because they all thought that someone else has chosen her, since, Sue being the Santa wouldn't be something unexpected.

12/14/2011

Today, we went to the science park auditorium for the rehearsal of the Christmas Performance. At first, when we got there, we practiced by ourselves outside, and after everything was verified, we went back in, watching performances of the other classes while waiting for our turn to rehearse. The elementary kid's performances were so adorable and made all of us hyper and cheered and clapped for them loudly. When it was our turn, we were really nervous actually, because even though we've been practicing a lot separately, we weren't confident at all about doing it together on stage. In the beginning, it was really dry and most people didn't get what we were doing and it was quite embarrassing. The ending of ours will be quite creative, with reindeers either throwing red paper airplanes with "Merry Christmas" and some pictures written on it, or throwing snow flakes. Although having to think of ideas and make people practice and participate in the performance was quite tiring, I had a lot of fun working with all the people in our grade, trying to make our performance good.

12/13/2011

If I didn't remember wrong, two days ago, I accidentally tore the skin of my nose. At that time, I had a running nose that made my nose itch so bad, that I had to keep rubbing my nose with tissue over and over. When it finally didn't itch anymore, I went to wash my nose, because I felt that it was hot from all the rubbing. But when I looked down, I saw something white on my nose. I knew that my skin was pealing off, but I didn't know how much of it was, so I pulled it quite hardly, which resulted as a big hole on my nose. The instance I pulled that big piece of skin off, I regretted it. There was a cold feeling on my nose, as if it was bleeding, and it was super painful. I ran to the bathroom and looked at my nose. I almost fainted in front of the mirror. Although it wasn't bleeding, there was some sort of liquid coming out of it, which grossed the hell out of me. Also, what worries me is that the Christmas Performance and the Winter Dance is held this week, and there aren't many days left for my wound to heal. I won't want my nose to be seen in those occasions, since there will be many pictures taken, and I would definitely not want those pictures to show my hideous nose. I also hope that there won't be scars, since girls with scars on their noses are quite disgusting.

12/12/2011

This week will be an exhausting week. Today, we just finished our History test, which I studied till 1:40 last night. This is just the first day. Tomorrow, and all the following days, all student council members will have to help out after school, and also, we will have to find some time to rehearse our Christmas Performance that will be held on this Thursday night. To be honest, ours wouldn't be counted as a fabulous performance, but of course, we hope that it'll be good and won't embarrass ourselves the way we did last year. And for the dance, we have to stay for a few hours everyday to make the dance good, buy or make things for decorations and other functions. It also includes the day of the Christmas Performance. I'm afraid that I will get too tired to do other things, so I'm trying to sleep earlier these days, although it's quite hard since I've been used to staying up late. On Friday, the day of the dance, it of course will be exhausting since people will have fun and stuff. And also, we have to clean up before we get to go home. The next day, some of the students in PAS will be going to Japan to ski early in the morning. I'm pretty sure that I'll be sleeping all the way to Japan.

12/11/2011

Tomorrow, we'll be having a History test, which is my worst subject of all times. I don't know why, every time I open my history text book, waves of sleepiness come whooshing at me, each stronger than the previous one. In class too, even though I try to concentrate during the videos the teacher shows us in, I  never can stay awake for the whole time, even if the video is something that I really feel interested in, I still often fall asleep after I know the main events. This time, we'll be tested on The American Revolution and The French Revolution. It's really annoying how I mix up the main events of both Revolutions and some key terms. Also, it's not that I don't try to concentrate while I'm studying, but when I study history, I just can't sit still, focusing on the studying. I keep accidentally open my computer and start chatting or check out new things on Facebook. I don't do them purposely, but still, every time I open my computer, I spend something like half an hour to get off of it, which in consequence, led to myself studying for History for the whole day, but still not really understanding what is happening in what time periods and forgetting the definition of key terms.

12/06/2011

To be honest, I'm really worried about our grade's Christmas performance. Although we started preparing in September, we thought that there was still a lot of time so we procrastinated a lot. Because of the procrastination, the real progress was made these days. Also, since our performance will include both acting and dancing, many people had to learn the dance within a few days, since our dance designer, Christine and Candy and some other girls, just got the dance moves designed too. Looking at them dance is actually quite fun, but I'm glad that I wasn't put in the dancing group because I really can't dance and I would never want to dance in front of the whole school. It would be super embarrassing to me. In this performance, I am one of the reindeers, and there aren't any parts for us to talk, which is a good thing to me, but may be bad for some other people that wants to talk in the show. We tried to add more things to make it more interesting, but it kind of is a little hard to make it interesting and also make all people in our grade, 30 people, talk and show something about themselves.

12/05/2011

Today is the birthday of my best friend in elementary school and I really miss her. Even though we've fought childishly and said that we would never ever be friends anymore, but after a while, we always became friends again. They were memories from long ago, but thinking about it often makes me smile. I used to be so childish too, but I still laugh at people that do the same thing as I did before. I miss my elementary friends a lot. I didn't get to graduate with them because I transferred to another school in grade 5. The friends I made in grade 5 are the ones that I remember the most in the whole elementary. Remembering how we kept acting like we're really cool and grownup, but thinking about it now makes me laugh. Memories are things that are most valuable to a person. Things can never be redone, all moments you have now can never be the same again. All the moments are unique, and people should try to grab onto the time you have now and feel happy that you're still breathing. There won't be time for you to be regretting about what you've done. What's done is done and nothing can be changed.

12/04/2011

Today is the sports day of our school and in the morning, it was really super cold, but later on, it got hotter, which made me regret wearing long thick pants. I had three events which were soccer, tug of war, and 100 relay. The first event I attended was the tug of war. It was so tiring and painful to my body. Now, at home, my hip and my legs are sore and aching. Even though we were doing our best, other teams were better than we were, and so we got the last place for that event. I wasn't particularly sad though, since we all did our best. After the first rounds of tug or war, I went to play soccer. For soccer, it was just those people in our team playing. I was the one standing there, not knowing what to do, because soccer is a sport that I absolutely don't like and didn't ever want to know the rules of it. All I know about it is that you can't touch the ball with your hands, and other than that, I know nothing about it. After soccer, I had the 100 relay. I had so much pressure, since when I was looking at the 200 relay, people kind of act meat towards the people that slowed the team down, and I am a really slow runner. I didn't want to slow my team down, and fortunately, even though I did slow it down by a bit, I didn't get chased over, and hopefully wasn't the reason why our team only got the third place. Anyways, this year's sports day is really fun and I enjoyed it a lot!

12/01/2011

These days are getting really super cold outside but in school, it's really hot and stuffy in classrooms especially those that don't have windows. For example, English class and Expository Writing class are the classes that I have that have the hottest and stuffiest rooms in the whole school. From what I've heard, there are other rooms that are the same too. Fortunately, I don't have that many classes that are held in those rooms. But in those classes, it gets really annoying in the end because you need to try to stay awake and focused in such uncomfortable conditions. Also, the classes that have bad air conditions are those that require full attention. During English and Expository Writing, I always almost get annoying and can't sit still in the end so I have to go out to the bathroom in every class in order to stay focused when I go back to the room. It's kind of ironic how the school is hotter in winters than in summers. Throughout the whole year, people can be wearing the same clothes since it's quite cold in school with the air conditioner turned on quite strongly and in winters, it's really hot in school. I don't think that the school should be hot though, since we're paying so much money to come to study, we shouldn't be feeling so uncomfortable in classes.

11/30/2011

Today I found out that I have a lot of muscles on my arms. To be honest, I'm freaking out already. A girl with muscles? That isn't cool. I don't want to look like the muscle women you see in TV. Also, my shoulders are getting wider and wider. The muscles and wide shoulders are caused by swimming too much I think. I know that swimming would cause people to have wider shoulders but I didn't know that it would be that obvious. I hate wide shoulders. Really. Last time I was trying on a dress for winter dance, but then found out that it would look good on me only if I didn't have these wide shoulders. Actually, not only that dress. Almost all clothes will only look good if I had thinner shoulders. The only way to prevent my shoulders to get wider is to quit swimming which is something that is quite impossible for me. It's the only sport that I'm good at. On land, I trip, fall, and hurt myself too frequently that my mom won't feel surprised when I hurt myself. I will continue swimming, but I guess I really have to deal with my muscles and wide shoulders.

11/29/2011

Today, I realized how fast time is going by this year. It feels like things were happening yesterday instead of a few months ago. To be honest, the camping memories are still fresh in my head. So many things happened these months and since we're really busy having lots of work to do, time flies so quickly. It feels like I don't have the capability of grabbing onto time and time is dragging me around. Yesterday when I looked at the school calendar and found out that winter break is three weeks from yesterday. The last day of school is a Friday, with the winter dance at night. Being a member of student council, I'll have to stay after the dance is over and do the cleanup. I might have to arrive home at some time around 12 in the morning next day. On the 17th, many of the student in PAS are going to go to Japan to go skiing for 5 days. I guess I would really be sleeping a lot on the plane, not watching any movies, which is something that I do all the time. I hope that time would really slow down a bit. There are still a lot of things that I haven't done and would want to do. Although sometimes I hope that time would pass faster so that some things would end. I know that running away from things won't solve anything, but I guess it's human nature to run away from obstacles.

2011/11/28

Tomorrow, there is a biology project due. Most people didn't do it till the last minute, including me. This project was to make a video about an experiment that could be done in space that would have a difference from doing that experiment in Earth. People were rushing through this project and didn't have great ideas. I too, didn't think a lot about my project. I did some research and found out that water in space and in earth have very different physical appearances and also that around 65% of human's body is made out of water. So my question was what effects will there be on humans when they go to space. I wondered if the water in our bodies would change too and what effects there will be if it really happens. I am also a very bad artist that had to spend a lot of my time trying to draw a good circle, water drop and humans. I kept drawing and erasing, drawing and erasing, over and over again. Finally in the end, I got figures that are acceptable and started filming it. It felt really weird talking to my computer by myself though no one could hear me. Making the video wasn't actually as hard as I thought it would be, but was as annoying as I thought I would be.

11/27/2011

I used to hate dogs a lot and feel scared about them, but today, unbelievably, I got a dog for myself. We had a Corgi around four months ago, and I never interacted with it. I like pictures of dogs because in pictures, they won't attack you or hurt you and are almost always cute. In real life, I never had the guts to go near or touch a dog, not even the one that I had in my home. These days, I saw pictures of a kind of dog called Japanese Spitz from Facebook of my friend. This type of dog looks like a fox and is white and to me, is super cute. Perhaps, the cutest kind of dog to me. Today, my parents told me that my brother wanted a second dog and I said that if we have to have another one, we need to get a Japanese Spitz. They agreed and surprisingly, they got the dog today. It is really stinky now but still really cute. We can't give it a shower yet for one week because the seller told us that when dogs move to a new environment, they can't shower because they're trying to adjust and they will be afraid to take a shower. So, I have to bear with its smell for one week. Also, this dog is quite fierce. It's his first day in my house but it already isn't afraid of the older dog and when they met, the older dog was actually afraid of it and moved away from it.

11/22/2011

These days in school, we've been talking about friendship often. In English class, Spanish class and also between us friends. In English class we talk about the similarities and differences between friends and enemies; In Spanish class, we talked about what good friends and bad friends are. I wonder sometimes too about the qualities of friends. I have friends that would listen to me and support me all the time and I really love them. Since I'm a person that always have issues happening, I always need suggestions from my friends and their support, or else I would breakdown. I would die without my friends, and I won't be able to part from them. Although friends have different opinions and might sometimes fight, but in the end, the misunderstandings always are resolved and we will go back to the old days. I often wish to have the ability to see if a person is going to be a real friends or just friends that want something from you. I've been through that pain, and I won't want to go through it again. It's too painful for me.

11/21/2011

Today is the performance, and the last one for me in the Taipei orchestra I've been attending since grade 3. I thought that I wouldn't feel sad, and yes, I didn't particularly feel sad, but I still had that moment of hesitation. I was hesitating about whether I should or shouldn't go back. Even though it's really tiring, I still feel that there are those benefits of going there. For example, today's performance, I learned a lot. For the practice times this time, I only attended around half of them. And on stage today during the rehearsal, I just realized how unfamiliar I was to the songs. I learned not to be too proud of myself, and think that I didn't need to practice and could play the songs well. I was really nervous on stage since I knew that there was a solo part today. Yes, I'm not exaggerating. I knew that I have a solo during the rehearsal today. It's quite pathetic, since I'm the "chair" of the oboes. I didn't really do well in this performance, which is quite depressing too since it's, in fact, my last performance. Still, I won't be going back and it's sad now when I think of it. I'll miss my friends and all the fun I had, and I guess someday I might go back and visit them!

11/20/2011

Tomorrow will be the performance for the orchestra I've been attending in Taipei. It'll be the last performance for me while attending the band, because it's really quite tiring to be coming back and forth between Taipei and Hsinchu. And since the amount of homework has greatly increased since I became a high schooler, I've decided not to go there anymore. It wasn't a hard decision to make too since all my friends that were there have left too and now, the people that are there are the new and I don't know most of them. Normally, the reason for me not to leave a place is because of friends. I hate leaving friends, so I wonder how I'll react when I graduate too. Anyways, tomorrow will be the final show. For this show, I always skipped practice because I often get sick these days from sleeping too late. I still hope that I can do well tomorrow though. Today was the final practice and it was really exhausting, having to play all the songs from the beginning to the end. The good thing about the performance is that I get to skip half day of school tomorrow and go to Taipei. If I'm lucky, I may even get to not eat school lunch and eat good food outside! Good luck to myself tomorrow :D!!

11/17/2011

I found a website that has a lot of prompt for journal writings because I am out of ideas already. Today I'll write about "What is the thing that would make you most sad?" To me, I guess that losing friends, especially those that would listen to me and understand me would be something that would make me sad the most. I'm a person that always think a lot when there's just a tiny thing that happened, and at those times, the thing that I need the most are the friends. Losing one of them would be so painful, especially if the definition of "losing" is to not be friends with them anymore. To me, all friends are important, and I wouldn't want to lose any of them. Another thing that would make me sad would probably be something that happens to my family. I think to everyone, it's the same actually. Even though some people may think that their friends are the most important thing in their life, family members are the ones that would never betray you.

11/16/2011

It's really amazing how I already finished all my homework and could sleep right after I finish the blog post. For the past few weeks, I've been sleeping the earliest at 1 in the morning and waking up at some time around 6:30 everyday. At school, sometimes it's quite hard to focus because you're struggling not to fall asleep. And when I get back home, I often feel tired and want to sleep for a while before I start working, but always, I won't be able to fall asleep because during the period of time of myself falling asleep, I often start thinking about other random things that happened or would happen if I make some kind of action. And most of the times, I would suddenly think about not being able to finish homework and then start to feel really worried, which would lead to myself not feeling sleepy anymore. I would bounce off my bed and try to get to work. But just like most students do, the first thing is to open Facebook and procrastinate. Although I know that spending so much time of Facebook isn't a good idea, it's just hard to resist the urge of getting on Facebook and checking out what's new. And now, I'm just going to study some Biology an go to sleep!

Today is Kara’s birthday. During lunch time, we had fun playing with shaving cream by spraying it all over her face, hair, and body. I was being such a “nice friend” by rubbing the cream all over her head. She had such a hard time trying to clean all those cream over her. Although we didn’t sing a happy birthday song to her loudly in the cafeteria, we still had fun by ourselves. But since we used shaving cream, which is of course, only used by men, we smelt manly the whole day. After school, we had the freshmen meeting first, then went to the hotpot restaurant below our school. We had a LOT of fun today. We ate a lot, chatted a lot, gossiped a lot, and enjoyed ourselves. We hope that this would be the best day Kara had in her life and that she'll like the gifts we gave her. After the dinner, we went back to school because our parents weren't there yet to pick us up. Sitting in front of the sofa, we chatted even more and I guess we got a little too loud that Carol, "jiao guan" came out and sort of scolded at us and wanted us to go home. Annie and I went downstairs first, and this is getting irrelevant. In conclusion, HAPPY BIRTHDAY KARA HU!! <3 :D

11/14/2011

Today we went to Kuang-Fu's swimming pool for swim practice. The water was sooooooo gross. It was salty and when we put into the water, we couldn't really even see through the water. It was really white and wasn't clear. After swimming for a while, the water started to make our skin itch. Annie started to scratch her skin so hard that it started to become red. Also, the water was really warm which made it really hard to breath while we swam. Today, in total, we didn't swim a lot actually. We swam for only about 1500 meters. In the end, Frank measured how fast we swam in 200 meters. It was measured in the end of the practice so we all we exhausted. And since I stopped practicing for 1 month and just started practice for 1 times last Wednesday, I couldn't really follow up. There were 7 people swimming today, and only 6 of us were measured. In my group, I was the last, but fortunately, comparing to the other group, I was faster than all of them. This made me feel good because I'm such a competitive person that wouldn't be happy to lose. I guess I'll really have to practice more frequently and not finding ways to skip practice.

11/13/2011

Today, I went to Maksim Mrvica's concert in Taipei. It was SO AMAZING. Not only the fact that I got to go with friends that could listen to me talk about bad things that happened these days in my life, Maksim was a really awesome pianist. The most awesome thing about him other than his skills, of course is how hot he is. :P. Unlike a lot of pianists, he has muscles and knows how to dress up to make himself look good. His skills really are indescribable. We were sitting at the third row because we got the tickets really early and of course, were more expensive, but it's worth it. Looking at his fingers move on the keyboard, I held my breathe for such a long time that I thought I might've died if he wouldn't stop playing. Also, I really wanted him to play "Flight of The Bumble Bee" because it's one of my favorites, but it wasn't on the list of songs he was going to play during the show, so I kind of was disappointed, but when the show was "over", and people yelled ancore, he played this song. When Sharon Wu and I heard it, we both screamed and grabbed each others hand from excitement. It really was so good. Not only that song, all his songs are really good. Although I'm not going to be a musician, I really admire his attitude towards piano. When he was young, there was war going on, so he and his classmates often had to stay in the basements of the school, since they would be in great danger if they go outdoors. When he was in school, he practiced piano almost all day long and of course, became such a successful pianist.

11/10/2011

What does loosing someone or something really important to you feel like? Should it feel really painful? If so, I guess I'm loosing someone that meant the most to me. We were once so close and we shared our deepest secrets with each other. Even though we are just so close, the mistake I made was so bad that made a huge crack form between us. Even though we still chat, things just feel so different. I want to do something to change it, and go back to the times when we were close. I really regretted what I've done but no matter what I do, everything's not going to change back to what it has been like. A quote from Annie, "Friendship if like glass, it can be fixed, but there will always be a crack". I didn't really believe that before, but now, I guess I really have to. Before, the person I'm talking about in this post and I are each other's "almost-priority" friends. Since my normal group of friends normally don't stay after school, or they don't really stay till as late as I do, I hang out with that person, but after the mistake, we never hanged out and had almost 0 interaction at school.

11/09/2011

Today is another tiring day, especially the swimming team practice. I've skipped practice for 4 weeks already, and today, we swam around 2500 meters. It was extremely tiring and there only were 6 people taht went. Jenny Tien and I were put in a group to swim at the same time. In the middle, she suddenly stopped and got on shore and said that she was going to throw up. I didn't and couldn't stop to help her, which I kind of regret not doing so now. Today most of the work was long-distances, which I am completely bad at, which made me even more tired comparing to if I could swim the same total distances but just in shorter distances each time. Although I felt and actually, am feeling, really tired with sore arms and legs, I still feel proud of myself, since it's the longest distance I've ever swam within a little more than an hour. I feel that I've accomplished something again. Frank said that from now on, each week would be more tiring than the previous week. Sitting in front of my computer, thinking about how tiring today's practice was, I'm starting to feel pressure towards the next practice. I wonder how tiring and how many meters we'll be swimming next practice. I want to improve, but as a normal person would hope, I don't want to be so tired.

11/08/2011

I guess the first quarter has officially ended and our grades can't be changed already. The new quarter has started, but sadly, I feel like I'm still relaxing. Homework hasn't been done effectively these days, and even when I do complete the homework, I spend a much longer time doing them. It's not that I've been chatting, I actually don't know why, but I've been blanking out for long periods when I do homework. I hate blanking out too, because it feels like a waste of time, since your brain doesn't work and you don't complete anything during that time. I'd rather be sleeping than blanking out. Since I blank out a lot, assignments are finished later and the quality may not be as well. I hope that this bad beginning doesn't show bad luck about my future quarter grades. I know that I feel lazy just after the midterms, and feel like relaxing and don't complete too much homework and not to give myself too much pressure, but I guess i'll have to change the habit sooner, or else I won't do any homework later on after tests.

11/07/2011

Today we marked the English Midterm. From what I heard, most people didn't do so well, although those people that always get the top grades still did really good. I know that I didn't do too bad, but I kind of wasn't satisfied with what I got. I made a list of all the midterm grades and also a list for all the quarter grades. Perhaps because I set my expectations too high, and I didn't achieve them, I got depressed. I hope that I'll do better next quarter! Nothing else really happened today again. Days just pass like this, and I try to live everyday happily. I've skipped swim team practice for already 3 weeks, and it's the forth week today already. I know that Frank isn't too happy about it, and also my teammates too, but since I really do have good reasons to not go, they couldn't really say anything. I'll be going to practice next time, this Wednesday though since I know that if I don't go, I'll slow down so much and would be very tired during the practice.

11/06/2011

These days, teachers have been posting our midterm grades on Veracross. We had 4 midterms in total, including English, Spanish, Expository Writing and Biology. Now, I already know my Spanish, Expository Writing and Biology's test grade. My biology and and Expository Writing grades were ok, but my Spanish grade wasn't too good. It wasn't that bad either, but comparing it to the grades I got in Spanish II, I didn't do so well. I wasn't really happy about it, but I wasn't too sad too. I hope that I'll improve on all the midterms though. And this time, according to veracross, I didn't achieve my goal this quarter. I didn't get straight A this year. So far, I have two Bs. I may sound really nerdy like this, but I actually don't think that I am one. All I am, is just a competitive person that wants to be good at everything. Although it is quite impossible to be perfect, I always hope to be really good at things. Next quarter, I would perform mostly the same in most classes, other than the ones that I didn't get As.

11/03/2011

Today will be the last night to be worrying about midterms. Tomorrow, we'll take the Biology midterm, which totally is freaking me out. There are 5 chapters to study and most of them are really confusing since a lot of them contain Chemistry, and I didn't take Chemistry yet. Trying to memorize equations, terms, and processes of things are driving me nuts. But surprisingly, I didn't sleep much last night, but I'm not really tired now although it's 11:20. Normally I feel tired at around this time but I force myself to stay up until around 1, but today, I really don't feel tired, just hungry. And in English class today, we played a riddle about Romeo and Juliet. We spent almost the whole class playing it, and when Howard asked the question "Are they human?", all of us went "WHAT?!" and thought that it was a stupid question, but when the teacher replied "No", all of us went "WHAT?!?!!?!?!" and then found out the answer. It was really fun although really confusing too.

11/02/2011

Today, we took our Expository Writing Class's midterm. It wasn't too hard and there wasn't that many questions to do, but some of the questions were a little hard to do. I had to think about it for a long time, but still not be sure if I'm right or wrong. Most of time during class was spent on writing the descriptive paragraph and the narrative essay. The descriptive paragraph was about the weather of Hsinchu and the narrative essay was about an incident that happened when I was younger. I didn't spend a lot of time thinking about what to write, but I spent a lot of time waiting for my hands to "recover" from the soreness of writing. I really don't like writing on paper since my hands get sore and get dirty, so I really wanted to ask the teacher if I could type out the essay instead of hand-writing it. Tomorrow is the only day that I don't have a midterm in this week, but I still can't rest tonight because of the Biology test on friday. I really feel nervous about it, and since the range is really big, I don't know where to start studying.

11/1/2011

Today, we had the Spanish Chapter test. Although it wasn't a midterm, I take every test and quiz very seriously. The vocabulary wasn't hard, but the grammar was super hard and I didn't know where I should start studying since I didn't know all of them. Also, the test was on a lot of parts, including the preterite, imperfect and subjunctive tenses, negative constructions, pronouns and some more other grammar things. Some of them were easy to get, like subjunctive tenses, but the imperfect and subjunctive tenses were really hard to get and really hard to know when to use which. Studying that made me feel angry, depressed and disappointed at myself. Even though I studied for a long time, I didn't thoroughly understand it and during the test, although I got most of it, I still had a headache after doing too many of those. Also, I remembered most of the parts, but a lot of the parts, I only remembered bits and pieces. When I found out that I only knew some parts of it, I felt nervous and then forgot literally almost everything of the grammar. Later on, many sentences were totally forgotten but when I saw the "cheat sheet" the teacher gave us, I remembered a lot. In conclusion, I didn't do too bad, but not too well too.

10/31/2011

Today, we had our English midterm, which had around 130 questions to do. It was insanely hard and detailed. I finally understand the importance of having sufficient sleep the night before tests. Last night, even though I was sick, I still slept at 2 in the morning and had around 5 hours of sleep. For a sick person, that is obviously not enough of sleep. Before the test, when we saw the teacher talking about the test with the test papers stacked on the table, my jaw fell open. There were 24 pages if i didn't remember wrong. During the test, my head ached so bad especially when I found out that I didn't know so many questions. I almost fell asleep in some occasions. This test is really hard, seeing how much questions there were to do in such limited time. Many people didn't finish it and guessed the rest. Although I finished the test, there really were many questions that I wasn't sure about. Even in the vocabulary section, I spent so much time on it yesterday, but I still wasn't sure about at least question. There was one that I wasn't sure whether it was stellar or luminous since both of them seemed to fit in the context.

10/30/2011

Tomorrow is the start of the midterm week. There will be only one midterm tomorrow, but it's English. God knows how hard it will be. According to what I copied down from what the teacher said the test will be about and also to what my friends did, the test would be on 9 stories and all the vocabulary and literary terms. The literary terms aren't that hard, I think that the hard part of this test would especially be the vocabulary since there are around 70 vocabulary in total I believe. Although I had a lot of them memorized before, my memory doesn't last too long and I forgot a lot of the harder and more unusual ones already. The worst thing that happened was that I caught a cold and had a fever last night. Today, I feel better but I still have a headache and a running nose. I had to spend a lot more effort trying to memorize them since my brain wouldn't function correctly, and I spent a lot of my time in the bed too. Also, stories became really complicated after a while since you don't know what details will be in the test. I hope that I can do well in the test, especially in Biology since it's so important.

10/27/2011

Today was the halloween event in our school. It was very tiring for the student council members since all the events were thought, designed, and made by us, but it was a success. During the last class in the morning, all the student council members were called to go help out with the set ups and putting the things in the fear factor boxes. There were four boxes that contained, worms with squid, organs, corn starch mixed with hair, and left overs. The first three boxes had a golden marble inside, and contestants had to find them within a minute to pass to the next level. And in the final box, there were a lot of marbles that had different colors that meant different things. The reactions of people putting their hands in the box was ridiculously funny. They didn't know what was inside and the feeling of the objects inside made many of them curse out loud. All of the audiences had so much fun watching people play and scream. Also, the haunted house was pretty awesome too. Last year, I kept pulling Annie and screaming, not letting her walk, but this year, Esther was the one screaming. It was pretty scary, but it really wasn't THAT scary. It was quite funny listening to her scream though. This year's event is really fun and I enjoyed it even though it took up a lot of our energy.

10/26/2011

"Sometimes it's better to be alone, because no one can hurt you." - Anonymous. I saw this quote on a Facebook page and I totally agree with it. The people that can hurt you the most are the people that are the closest to you. Although isolating yourself seems a bit like a loner, but to be honest, it's really a very good way to make sure that no one can hurt you. Who would hurt someone that didn't do anything to them? Who would ever hurt someone that they don't know? And even if they wanted to, they might not know what hurts them the most and wouldn't affect you. Also, seeing the people that were the closest to you turn their backs against you could be one of the most painful mental injuries. In a song from Cascada, there's a part of it that says "What hurts the most, was being so close, and having so much to say, and watching you walk away". I could totally agree with this. People that were once close to you are of course people that you could chat with and talk about everything to. But when they turn their backs and walk away from you, it's the most painful thing that could possibly happen to a person I believe.

10/25/2011

Today, I feel like I would die of exhaustion in any second. I slept at some time around 1:30 last night, which wasn't particularly late. Although it wasn't really late, classes today required a lot of energy. The classes were Geometry, Biology, Stage Art and Spanish III. Geometry, Biology and Spanish are classes that are definitely energy-taking, and even though Stage Art doesn't really require our brains to be working, it requires us to be focused in order to sew the right things together in the right way. After school, there was the student council meeting that talked about basically the schedule for what we'll be doing on the halloween event's day. After I went home, it was around 6 o'clock and I took a rest and started homework. Really quickly, 8 o'clock came and i had to go to oboe class. The teacher was really strict as usual, which made the already-exhausted me become a person that was walking like someone without a skeleton. And when I got home, it was around 9:30, which only let me have around 15 minutes to rest and then have another class on the Internet. It's the EPGY class, which course I'm taking now is pretty hard for me and requires a lot of thinking about concentration. Tuesdays are basically killing me.

10/24/2011

Again, Biology is killing me. ADP, ATP, The Krebs Cycle, Electron Transport... and all those other things are driving me crazy. I haven't understood the previous chapter yet, and the teacher is already giving out homework for the next chapter. Everything's mixing up in my brain, and since there are a lot of chemistry involved actually, which I totally suck at. Just trying to understand a tiny part of the chapter takes up almost all of my time, and there are tons of parts still waiting. I'm actually quite scared that someday my body wouldn't be able to support myself. I've been sleeping really late these days. The latest these days was at 5 o'clock in the morning. I admit that I wasn't studying all the time, but the majority of the time, I was studying. I really want to get good grades, but it feels like the more I want it, the harder it gets. Now I'm really depressed and I don't know what to do. I don't feel like studying and I tried to go to sleep, but it's just not possible. I stare at the ceiling, not being able to fall asleep.

10/23/2011

This summer, I'm planning on making a program in which some students in PAS will be teaching English to students in elementary schools that aren't that advanced and may not have the money to send their children to cram schools to study English. But since English is such an important language nowadays, I feel that the students in those places could be people like Steve Jobs or people that can make a change to the world in the future, but they just don't have the opportunity to learn such an important language, which would probably take away the chance of him/her to succeed in the future. They might still succeed, but since English is so important, people often say that if you don't know English you won't be able to succeed, since no boss would want to hire a person that can't speak English. I know that making a camp like this is very tiring and would cost us money, but I believe that not only the kids would gain benefits, us students that go there and teach them would definitely gain something useful too. We could learn about how different people think and find out how we always get what we want, while those kids have to work so much harder than we need to to get it. I believe that it'll be worth it.

10/20/2011

These days, things are just pure chaotic. It feels like the world is tearing apart. I know that what I've done was really bad, and I'm not going to deny the fact that I've done it and hurt people, but I really do want to change. I did the same mistake before and I promised that I would change, but stupidly, I did it again. This time, not only the people I hurt got angry at me, one of my best friends that always listens to me got angry too and decided almost not to talk to me until I show that I really changed. I really regret doing everything I've done, but I guess, what's done is done, and regretting now would make a difference. The only way of making a difference would be to change myself and really know that the consequences of doing some actions will be unforgivable. Also, knowing how hurt some people were, made me feel even more guilty and no one really knows how much pain I'm suffering too. Everyone feels sorry for the people that were hurt, but really, no ones feels sorry for the people that did the hurting, no matter how sorry or how sad or how much they regret from doing it.

10/19/2011

Today I was writing the climax of my ghost story alone at home. Although mine isn't the most creepiest story ever, but in my head, I had a lot of images and since there weren't people in my house, all I heard was the wind and things that the wind blew on to things that made creepy sounds. I know that it's just wind, but being alone in such a big house makes me think about horror movies that I've watched, which would totally freak me out. I'm the kind of girl that loves to watch horror movies and scare myself to death at night especially when I'm alone at home. Back to the first topic about the ghost story. I really liked my idea of the ghost story, and I had a lot of scenes and images in my head, but it's just that I don't know a lot of vocabulary that could possibly make my story follow the way I want it too, so the descriptions often become really repetitive and the should-be-scary story changes into a quite boring one. I guess the only way to improve my writing the most is to memorize more vocabulary.

10/18/2011

Today, could be one of my most chaotic day in years. It's quite personal, so I won't be talking about it in detail. But basically, it's that I did something wrong that is really unforgivable. To the person I hurt, that person felt that I betrayed him/her. I really regret everything that I've done, but I really think that nothing much could be done to make that person feel better now. Now thinking about it, I really feel like jumping off the building. I've never regretted doing something more than this. I am really frustrated and depressed right now but I don't know what to do to change things and make up what I've done. Some people suggested me to leave him/her alone, some people suggested me to write him/ her an apology letter. But since the person's friend told me not to even say hi to him at school, and that it's impossible for him/her to forgive me. I really don't know what to do now and it's not that I'm trying to extend the length of my blog post, it's just that there's nothing other than the things i've just said in my mind now. I would really want to apologize, but things really are so complicated that I don't know what to do, what to think and what actions to do. I'm really afraid that if I make one more wrong decision, things will get worse and there won't be any more chance to make what I've done up.

10/17/2011

Today, I did an action that I never thought that I would ever do. This epic action is that I deactivated my facebook account. I've been spending way too much time on it and I know it. Before, I kept saying to myself that it's ok to be using facebook since I was still in middle school. But because being on facebook allows me to be able to know about the information that people are posting right away, I got way too addicted to facebook that the first website I open everyday is facebook, when I do homework I un-noticingly open the facebook page and the total amount of time that I'm on facebook, including when I'm using my phone when I'm not at home would be something around 5 hours I think. Because of facebook, I often get distracted and have to finish homework at really late at night. Now that I've deactivated my account, I hope that I will be able to concentrate better and be able to have more time to do things that I enjoy doing For example, listen to music and not being afraid that it will distract me from doing homework or probably have a laugh at funny youtube videos. And the best of all is that I might be able to go to bed early, which I've not been doing for quite a long time already.

10/16/2011

This weekend I really did nothing. Really, writing these blog posts make me depressed. It really feels like my life is just so boring that everything I write about overlaps, and I really have nothing that's exciting that happens. Today, I went to Taipei, which I normally go to every Sundays for orchestra practice. I've skipped many classes already because of swimming competitions, family issues and a lot of other reasons, so today when I went there, I really forgot every song. Actually, thinking about the orchestra, I really don't want to go there anymore. I've been there for two years already, but all my friends have left. Literally, all of them left. Now, none of the people in the orchestra are people that I've known for two years. Even the teacher changed. It's not that I don't want to make friends with other people, but it's that things just changed too much and I guess I don't really like getting used to changes like this. It's easier for me to make friends in school since we meet almost everyday, but it's harder to make friends in the orchestra since I don't go there every week, and even if I did, we only meet up once a week. Now, in the orchestra, I just talk to the people that I know a bit, but I'm just so different than I normally am.

10/13/2011

Nothing interesting really happened in school today. I'm in the sofa area right now and I really don't know what to write about today. I have a lot of things to think about which actually made me unable to sleep at night. I had a lot less homework yesterday and I was able to sleep at 11 o'clock last night, which was actually something quite rare. I've been sleeping at 2 for a lot of days already. I had to do homework till so late and since I have also music classes, student council things to do, local school's math to study, and also swimming practices to worry about. But, even though I got on bed at 11, I fell asleep at 2. Just thinking about all those things make me feel really annoyed and worried. Too many things are happening all at once and I feel like I'm going to collapse in any second. I'm not really complaining about anything, but it could make me totally loose the eagerness to sleep for three hours. It's quite ridiculous. And also, these days, it feels like I'm about to get sick, but I just don't really have any real symptoms. I keep having headaches and wants to throw up all the time, but after a while, those feelings disappear, so I really have no idea about what's going on with my body. All I know is that I'm feeling really uncomfortable.

10/12/2011

Today in history class, we watched videos clips of anti- slavery commercials. The first one we watched was really touching and I felt so depressed and wanted to cry. It talked about how children were taken away when young, and female ones were raped or else they would be tortured by electricity shocks. They had to serve around 30 men everyday. Just thinking about living a life like that makes me feel really bad. I'm living such a wonderful life and sometimes not being grateful about it, when people around the world are suffering from this kind of torture. Afterwards, we read an article about Missing children in China. The rate was incredibly high. The government of China say that there are 10,000 kids kidnapped per year, but other countries estimate that there are actually around 70,000 kids. The Chinese government only counts the cases in which the children are found and have proof that they did get kidnapped. And they say that it's a fact that the more deformed a child is, the more money they get when they beg. So, almost all of them that come back are deformed. Also, it's almost impossible to find them back since the handlers are so smart that they take the kids to a far away place and the family wouldn't have a way to track them down. This is so depressing. Imagine your own kid being taken away and tortured. How would you be able to eat or even sleep? Knowing that your kid is suffering in the exact moment you're eating would make you loose your appetite almost immediately. I guess I wouldn't be able to do anything about it, but I believe that the Chinese government should be making websites and posting commercials on TV to increase public awareness about this issue.

10/11/2011

Today we had a freshmen meeting about christmas performance after school in the auditorium. Yesterday, someone told me that some students were saying that our meetings were pointless and were a waste of time. Just thinking about that makes me angry. Being class reps, Jasper and I spent a lot of time trying to make our show work well and we even started the discussion of the performance a lot earlier than other grades because we wanted ours to be the best, and not to feel embarrassed like last year. They say that we're not being productive, but the main reason is actually because whenever Jasper and I ask questions about the performance and ask for suggestions, no one really gives us feedback and just sit there and stare at us blankly. How are we supposed to be productive if no one gives us suggestions. Jasper and I aren't machines that produce good ideas about performances. To be honest, the person that told me about it is stupid too. They could go around and tell anyone, but telling this to one of the class reps would be really stupid. I don't know what we could do to make our class more organized and work together more as a group.

10/10/2011

Today is the 100th birthday of Taiwan. I didn't feel much difference other than the having boring news almost all day and that both of my parents don't have work today. There weren't parades in front of my house like Taipei, there weren't music playing all day long like other places and there weren't fireworks. As usual, my family woke up, my brother studies in his school and I study at home. It's just feels like living Sunday two times. Actually, writing all these blog posts make me feel depressed. It feels like I'm living a really boring life and the blog posts I post are really boring and meaningless. Anyways, back to the topic of the birthday of Taiwan. I saw a really creative status post on facebook today that says that even though there's a 60 years old country trying to attack us always, he believes that we'll win since we're older than them. Of course, the 60 year old country is China. This would be funnier if it's in Chinese, but this would kind of be the best translation I could do.

10/05/2011

Today, my legs were itching so bad again and whenever a person sees my legs, they gasp with amazement.  They gasp, not in a good way, because the bites were so swollen that they were larger than a 50 dollar coin. During the history class in the morning, I really couldn't stop scratching it and I couldn't concentrate. It was not a good sign since I only have a B+ now, and my goal is to at least get an A. If I don't do well on a test, I wonder how I'm going to get an A. After lunch, it was expository writing. It started itching so bad again and I couldn't stand but to go to the office and ask for ice packs. Then, when Frank, Ms. Sherry, and Ms. Michelle saw my leg, they really freaked out, and Ms. Monica gave me some pills to take. It felt better, but the bites were still humongous. When I got home, I finished a lot of the homework and went to the doctor. The doctor didn't know what kind of bug bit me, but she said that my body's reaction to it is quite serious and if it doesn't recover after a week, I might have to go to the hospital. That freaked me out a bit, since I didn't know that it would become that serious.

10/4/2011

Today was quite a painful day because of all the mosquitoes that bit me during camp PAS. I don't know why, but they started to itch just today. They weren't as itchy a few days ago and not even yesterday. Today, I would die to stop them from itching. In total, there are more than 30 bites, but I'm not sure about the specific number since the number of bites are always different when I count them. During Spanish class, I kept moaning since I had to take notes, but my legs were itching so bad and because I wore jeans, it was so hard to scratch the itchy parts. I even didn't care about my reputation and pulled up my jeans to try to lessen the itchiness, but the bad thing was that many of the bites got scratched too bad that already broke.  I've been writing this blog post for more than 20 minutes already because I really can't focus on anything, and I'm soaking my legs in cold water so that they won't itch as much and that I won't scratch them as often. It's really a painful thing to have that many bites on my legs. Next year, I guess that I'll have to bear with the stickiness of the mosquito repellant.

10/3/2011

Today is another boring day. Classes followed classes and the day ended without really knowing that it ended. Today could be counted as a miserable day actually. The weather was really cold but I didn't know it until I arrived at school. So, as usual, I wore shorts and a thin jacket. It was okay during classes, but after swim team practice, it was really not ok. It was raining and the wind was so strong. I have a bad habit of not drying my hair after swim practice since I shower again when I get home. Normally, when I leave the swimming pool, the car would normally be there, but today, I had to wait in the wind and rain for a while. I think that's the reason that I might've caught a cold. When I got home, I ate dinner and did a little of the TONS of biology homework, and passed out for half an hour. When I woke up, my head was so heavy and I felt so dizzy. I wanted to sleep some more, but when I remember the amazing amount of biology homework there is, I couldn't fall asleep at all. If someone asks me who the most insane teacher is in PAS now, I would definitely say Mr. Smart....

10/2/2011

This weekend, there was another swimming competition. This one is for the whole Hsinchu City and the first places would be able to attend the competition for the whole country. If I could, I wouldn't want to talk about this forever, since it's the most humiliating competition to me. Before, I've never been gotten a place lower than the fifth place, but this time, everything was so different. I swam the 50 meter and 200 meter freestyles, and I got the ninth place for the 50 meter and the last place for the 200 meter. It was so humiliating that I couldn't stop crying for quite a long time. Whenever I thought of it, my tears just kept pouring out. Although I could happily say that I've improved in the 50 meter dash, but I still didn't get into my goal, the first three places. I didn't even get into the first eight. Just writing this blog post makes me want to cry again. And for the 200 meter one, I got slower by one second. It may not seem like it's a lot, but to me, I feel like it's not a good thing to stay the same, and this time, it got even worse by slowing down. It really isn't a good sign, and I kept thinking of excuses to make myself feel happier, but I couldn't think of any. This time, I really felt humiliated, but next time, I swear that I'll get them back.

Camp Day 3

Today is the last day of camp, and I'm just going to be lazy by trying to type on everything that I remember I wrote in the paper and probably add a little more. During this three-day- camp, I had a lot of fun with all my friends. The rafting wasn't as fun as I thought it would be, but I guess it's just because I've set my expectations too high. A lot of us got so sun burnt and all of us were moaning all day long. It felt like our legs were going to burn, especially when I showered at night, the water felt like knives. The train ride felt so much faster than when we went there. I guess it's because I sat with people that "knew" how to play? We even played hide and seek. It was quite funny how we all got caught so fast, since there wasn't really anywhere to hide in the trains. We also played some games that I played when I was in elementary school. They brought back many good memories. Well, I really had a lot of fun in this year's camp. It's the first camp in my first year of high school! And it has officially ended! It'll stay in my memory forever. When I went home, I slept all the way to 12 the next day. I didn't know that I could sleep that much, but I did. And throughout the day, I felt like I could sleep more.

Camp Day 2

Today, it's the second day. I slept at 4 last night and woke up at some time around 7, but I'm actually not really tired, which is quite amazing. I had a lot of fun with my friends. We chatted, shared secrets, walked around the camp, played cards and did a lot of other idiotic things that we've never done before. Today, the main event was the rafting. It wasn't as good as I've expected, since people kept telling me that the one we went during our graduation trip was a level 1 one, and the one we were going to today was a level 2 or 3. Today, I felt that most of the time, we just kept paddling, unlike in Bali, we could rest whenever we wanted to because the water pushes us really fast without us having to paddle to hard. The sun was way too strong too. When we were on the raft, we didn't think that it would be too bad, but when we went showering, I almost cursed. The parts that had clothes on were so white and the other parts were way too black and red to be possible. When we got back to the camp, Frank was so cruel and hit our legs so hard. It really was so painful that we screamed and hit him again and again. haha. Then after dinner, the show was pretty awesome and I really enjoyed it. We stayed there after the show and chatted, played cards and did crazy stuff again. We went back when some teachers said that some people's tents crashed. We then went to Hantine, Ivy, and Charlotte's tent and did the same old stuff. But since all of us were really tired, we fell asleep for a while and when I woke up, Annie and I went back to our tent and Annie slept. I took a walk around the camp and went back at 3:30. It was pretty amazing again how I could sleep so late for two days. This is about it for the second day of camp.

Camp Day 1

Today is the first day of camp, and to be honest, it wasn't too good. We spent 4 hours on the train first. It was pretty fun playing with friends, but it was a little hard to sleep with so much noise. Then, when we got there, we played the obstacle race. It was really fun in the beginning, but got boring towards the end. I guess the bucket was a little too big. There was a frog in the pool too! The part in which it touched Esther's leg was pretty funny how she screamed so loud. And after the game, we all kind of had fun by ourselves by pouring water on each other. After a while, I stopped since I felt a little cold and I was all soaked. Afterwards, we had to walk a pretty long time to get to a lake to paddle some kind of boat. Annie, Iris, Lynn and I were on a boat. That was pretty fun actually, but it really was very tiring. The bad part of it was that our boat broke in the middle of the lake and we had to wait there for around 10 minutes until someone finally came to save us. And on the way back to the camping area, it started raining so hard again that my dried clothes got all soaked again. Then we had BBQ. The little kids pissed us off so bad because we all were so hungry at that time, and we gave them the food first, but they kept saying that it didn't taste good and just didn't eat them. We all wanted to kick them since we all were really hungry.

9/22/2011

Today in history class, we watched a super depressing movie called "Amistad". It's about African slaves being caught and being brought to America, but then brought to court. It was really so depressing that I almost cried and felt like throwing up when we had lunch later on. Slaves were being whipped to death by no reason, sick people got not food to eat although all of them are super hungry, females were being raped, and some people got dragged to the bottom of the sea with stones and chains around them, pulling them down. It really was so depressing. After the class was over, I couldn't stop thinking about it and I suddenly felt that I am so lucky to be living in this family. Not being beaten up for no reason, having food to eat, being able to go to the doctor when I'm sick. I often don't appreciate what I have already and feel jealous when I realize that someone else has something that I don't have. Today, whenever I feel that I am not satisfied about something, I think about the movie and then I know that they would be begging for a live like mine, and I feel satisfied.

9/21/2011

Today, as usual, is a boring day. Everything passed like it normally does, and the only thing I can talk about would probably only be about study hall. During study hall, Annie and I worked really hard, which is actually quite amazing since we've never worked so hard in school before. And even more amazingly, I finished all homework that are due tomorrow in school and even finished some of the homework that's due on Friday. It's a really good thing since I've been sleeping really late these days. Like last night, I slept at 2:30 in the morning. At school, it sometimes is really hard to not to fall asleep in some certain classes. Today, I'll be able to sleep earlier hopefully. Although I finished all the homework that are due tomorrow, I still want to start on some other homework like Biology. The amount of homework this teacher gives is about the same as Mr. Lindamenn, but this teacher teaches worse than he did. In classes, almost no one was listening to him and sometimes would get chaotic. So, I think that I would want to write his homework first, since although the homework's due after the camp, there are 27 pages for us to read and summarize.

9/20/2011

Today was the first real class of Musical Production. There were about 23 of us, but since the teacher said that he's not sure about who will stay in the play because he doesn't know how many people we need yet. I don't think that they're doing the right thing since people won't be able to go to their original classes, but if in the end, they got kicked out of the class, they would be falling behind in their original class. It would be a bad thing for all the teachers and those students. Also, I would feel really sad and probably a little humiliated if they kick me out since we did the audition, and they'll keep the people will better skills, and so it means that I'm not good enough to be in the musical. To me, a person that really cares about what other people think of me, this isn't a good thing. But, since I'm actually quite shy to sing on stage, I am really still thinking about whether I should stay in the musical or not.

9/19/2011

I just realized that I've forgotten to write the blog post yesterday. I guess things were a bit messy and caused me to forget everything. Yesterday was the swimming competition for Hsinchu County. In the whole school, only Annie, Amanda and I went to the competition. Although the results were quite good, Annie and I weren't really satisfied with them. Both of us didn't improve at all, and most surprisingly, the seconds were exactly the same. .3 and .21. They didn't change at all. It was quite sad, but the good thing was that I got a silver and a bronze medal; Annie got two bronze medals and Amanda had a gold one and a 6th place award. I was really scared and nervous when I just got there because I really haven't been practicing for a week before the competition. So, during the practice time before the competition, I tried jumping, but then my butt hurt real bad. It didn't really affect the results I think, but it still affected my mood because it made me more nervous. When I finished the 200 m match, my legs were so sore that I almost couldn't walk. It was really depressing when I found out that I was the third place and the distance between me and the second place was only an arm's length. It made me feel sad how I could almost be the second place, but in the end, still only got the third. I would want to get a better score on the next competition, but before that competition, we have only one more swim team practice to go, because there is camp next week and the competition is right after the match.

9/15/2011

Today, there wasn't much that happened. Everything kind of went by smoothly. There were some changes in my schedule again though. As I've said in many previous blog posts, I don't want to take PE since I have swimming team right after it. Today, we went to talk to Ms. Sherry about it, and surprisingly, she went to talk to Pamela about this with us. And even more surprising, Ms. Pamela let Annie and I have a free block in during that period, but we have to do 4 lessons of Wordly Wise every week. We were thinking about whether we should take PE or do 4 Wordly Wise lessons per week. In the end, we felt that we'd rather be mentally tired than to be physically tired, so we chose to go to study hall. And the other change that happened today was that I left community service and went to the computer club. Although I changed my club, I didn't go today, since I have a competition on Sunday, and today might be the last day that I will be able to swim before the competition. I went to Kuan Fu with the elementary students. The good news was that I was able to swim, but the bad news was that I slowed down a lot.... I will go swim tomorrow too if I have time, and I hope that I really can do well on this competition.

9/14/2011

Today, we had PE again. And as usual, it was tiring. 9 rounds around the basketball court makes everyone exhausted. Then, we chose teams that was going to stay that way for the whole quarter. Unfortunately, our team's members weren't as athletic as the other team's but I still got to be with Annie! The sad thing was that there were so many new students in our team, and we didn't really know them, while the other team had mostly the old students and the new ones that are already close with us. Also, their team had the basketball team players, while our team only had a few people that were above average. Also, volleyball is a really hard game, and we weren't really happy about the way Mr. Lee teaches us. So, the losing team had to do pushups, but we felt that it's not that we didn't want to do well, it was just that we weren't good at it. It felt like he was thinking that we didn't play hard enough and had to get punished.

9/13/2011

Today was the first meeting for all freshmen about the Christmas show. Although it seems like it's still a bit too early to be preparing for it, I don't want our class to be embarrassed by the whole school again like we did last year. And last year, it was because we started to brainstorm in the last minute. The last minute was a REAL one. We didn't even know what we were going to do until the rehearsal day. Then, we decided to do Rudolph the red nose reindeer. It was a total failure and embarrassment for all of us. This year, we're starting really early and trying to come up with something good that would be entertaining and related to Christmas. It's really hard, and today's meeting was rather chaotic since some people were chatting and not coming up with ideas. It was really annoying, but we still did come up with some ideas. This year, the freshmen are going to dominate the show!!

9/12/2011

These days, I've been feeling very depressed although it's moon festival. Next Sunday is the swimming competition for Hsinchu County. Annie, Amanda and I are going to compete in that competition. Not against each other though! But, since I have some feminine issues, I am not able to swim in the week before the competition, which is the most important week for the people that are competing the longer distances. I am sort of doing a long distance one, but since I'm not able to be practicing in the last week, I'm already sure that I won't do well on this competition. I kind of said to myself that it's ok, since there will be another one on 10/1. But then, i realized again that there will be camp if the week before the competition. That made me really really depressed since there are only a few competitions in the whole year, and I wouldn't perform well in these two.

9/8/2011

There was nothing really special that could make me write a blog about, but the most exciting thing probably would be having to go to school with both of my legs in a disgustingly bad condition. When I woke up in the morning, I almost fell right onto the floor, since they were like soft and didn't have any force in them! It was a painful process to walk to buy my breakfast and waiting for the elevator with all those text books. Another thing that is very painful to us is the change of schedule in Tuesday and Friday afternoon. Normally, Annie and I chose Stage Art and Spanish III, which worked perfectly well for us. But now, since Stage Art has been moved to the last block in which conflicts with Spanish III. Both of us want both classes really much, but in the end, we chose Spanish III. But, because we chose Spanish III, we don't know what class to take in the third block. The only classes that we could choose are Economics, General Science, and Choir. To us, General Science is completely unnecessary since I have Biology and Annie has Chemistry already. And even though we like singing, we don't want to go the the choir, because the type of singing in choir isn't the kind that we like. But now it leaves us with Economics that we think would be too hard for us. We are really thinking about which class we should take, since none of those classes are classes that we like.

9/7/2011

Today could be counted as one of the bad days. First of all, in the last period, which was PE, we had to run 9 laps first. Then, we did the fitness tests. The first two were about the muscles on the arms, and the last one was running. In between the tests, Mr. Li let us have a five minute break, and people were scattered around the sixth floor. Then when the break finished, he blew the whistle three times, but not everyone was gathered yet, so, we had to run suicides. The last person to finish would have to rerun it again, and unfortunately, I was the second to last, but Mr. Li wasn't sure about whether it was me or it was Candy that was the last one. So he wanted us to rock paper scissors and see who loses. But then, it seemed like Candy was already dying of exhaustion, and I didn't really care about the grades of PE since I have swimming team already, so I decided that I would just run. So in total, I guess I've ran around a mile perhaps? Then when we went to swim practice, my left leg had the cramps first. IT WAS REALLY PAINFUL!!!! And I rested for about 10 minutes and decided to start swimming again, but then, my right leg had it too!!!!! I felt like crying because it really is very painful! I never really wanted to join PE class, but in that period, I have no other class to take but that. I really feel bad because PE is one Mondays and Wednesdays, and swim practice is so too!!

9/6/2011

Today, I feel really really sad. The first reason is that I forgot to bring my Biology and Geometry text book home!! I planned on finishing all the Biology homework today, since this teacher gave more homework than Mr. Lindamenn... Since I planned on finishing all of my Biology homework tonight, I didn't bring any other homework home. When I got home, I then realized that my backpack was way too light, and when I found out that I didn't bring it home, I got furious. But it was too late to go back to school, so I decided to see what homework I did bring home. When I checked my bag, I found my math notebook, but NOT THE TEXT BOOK!!! I wanted to cry, but I felt a little happier when I did most of my history homework, and started skyping my friends. We had so much fun fooling Isabel on skype by saying how cute and handsome the new students are. It was kind of mean in a way, but we did explain to her in the end. Although I had a day that I couldn't do any homework, but I had a real fun day with all my friends!!

9/5/2011

Last night, when I already fell asleep, I fell a sudden eagerness (?) to throw up. I jumped out of bed and covered my mouth and tried to get to the bathroom. It was really late at night and I didn't want people to get up and help me clean up the mess. Unfortunately, I didn't succeed, but I did get to the bathroom in time, just not the toilet. When I woke up the next morning, I still felt very sick, and for the first time, my mom allowed me not to go to school! I stayed home and rested the whole morning, and at lunch time, I felt a lot better, and I didn't have the fever anymore. So, since there was going to be a swimming team test, I figured that I didn't want to do it alone on the next practice day. I went to practice, and many people were surprised to see me there. haha. Although I got slower since I didn't get to practice as much in summer, I was still quite satisfied with how I swam today. And Patrick got so much faster after the summer! I will practice more and win him again!! :D There are five new students that want to come to swimming team, but unfortunately, we had to kick some of them out, since they didn't meet the requirements. I finally kind of understood how judges in many TV contests feel like!!

9/4/2011

The first week of school has officially ended. I couldn't believe how many new students there are. When we were in grade 8, there were just 13 of us, and now, the number of new students are actually more than the old students. It was kind of scary seeing so many new faces in our classes, but I'm slowly getting used to it already. The first week of school always is a mess, since we have to choose between many classes, and people could choose to stay in that class or not. In the first class, you may see some people, but not in the second class. Some people did all the homework, but then had to transfer to another class. It would really suck if I had to do all of my Biology homework, but then Sue would force me to go to another class or something. This did happen to some of the new students, and I'm secretly happy that I'm not one of them. :P Tomorrow will be the second week of the new semester, and I hope things will be more organized and everything will move on more smoothly.